Friday, October 31, 2003

Words can't describe my feelings. these pictures show how i feel now. like a happy idiot.

Thursday, October 30, 2003

Well everyone, tomorrow's the big day. the day where our fates can no longer be changed, ie report-book-giving-out day (sorry, this was the best way i could phrase it at the point of writing). best of luck to everyone, but a more concentrated dose of luck to 3/6. ^_^

so, post-exam programme was kinda fun with dancing and all, at least we didn't have to endure 2 hours on the floor again.

the 2002 yearbook *finally* came. it's about time. while looking through it, i was reminded so much of last year's 2/5. the good and the bad. it also struck me that the school underwent some major changes. and i was there to witness it. sure some of the changes may not seem logical or reasonable, but we have to adapt.

the yearbook also had photos of all the classes (as it always does). looking at last year's sec 2 cohort, ie. us, it's quite difficult to think that over a year, most of the "boys" in the photos have taken up important roles in the student council/their respective ccas. not to be boastful, but 2/5 '02, the band and bowling class, has about 50% of the people in the 2 ccas as committee members. i wonder, did our seniors feel the same way as we (or at least i) do now? were they thinking "can we trust these guys with the cca's future?" or was it "i'm 100% confident in their abilities." for me now, looking at the sec 1's and 2's, it's the former question.

oh hell, my mind's really in a whirl now and i can't think too clearly, so i'll wrap up here.

btw. cool jersey, Brendan. ^_^

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Well. first official day of monkhood. it isn't so bad...even though i still have a *tiny* bit of regret when looking in the mirror. oh well. typical class response, in the form of "EEEEEEYYYYYYYAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!" just like the past 2 years. so cliched. ^_^

went to sentosa to scout the place for the camp. looks kinda fun...there's even a 7-11. but from what i hear, morning pt's gonna be...stressful.

oh well...life doesn't suck that much, unless they count average as a criteria for promotion.

some more lyrics i got my hands on:

Utada Hikaru - Simple and Clean (Kingdom Hearts theme)
When you walk away,
You don't hear me say "please,
Oh baby, don't go."
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight,
It's hard to let it go.


You're giving me too many things, lately
you're all I need,
You smiled at me, and said,

Don't get me wrong, I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you'll understand
What I meant when I said "No,
I don't think life is quite that simple"

When you walk away,
You don't hear me say "please,
Oh baby, don't go."
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight,
It's hard to let it go.

The daily things, that keep us all busy,
Are confusing me.
That's when you came to me, and said,

"Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you'll understand
It's enough when I say so
And maybe some things are that simple"

When you walk away,
You don't hear me say "please,
Oh baby, don't go."
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight,
It's hard to let it go.

Hold me,
Whatever lies beyond this morning,
Is a little later on.
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all,
Nothing's like before.

When you walk away,
You don't hear me say "please,
Oh baby, don't go."
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight,
It's hard to let it go.

Hold me,
Whatever lies beyond this morning,
Is a little later on.
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all,
Nothing's like before.

Hold me,
Whatever lies beyond this morning,
Is a little later on.
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all,
Nothing's like before.

Saturday, October 25, 2003

Is it just me, or are people updating their blogs less frequently? now got nothing interesting to read...v_v

i'm really delaying making my ic. i WILL do it on monday.

i guess why people don't update that much now is that well, not much is going on in their lives now, after exams and all. not like during exam period, where there were updates to boost morale, relieve stress, kpkb about the papers etc. etc. now life is boring.

i guess i also will be updating less frequently from now...maybe once every 4-7 days? i think a summary of that number of days will be equivalent to one day in exam time.

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Mrs terminator bala (tm) rules the universe, right up there, slightly lower than Hiko-sama. apparently, she gave me the mark that i asked for. so now none of my english components got below 10.

*the following dance/song is done to a tune which brendan is most familiar with* I'm gonna go to sec 4...I'm gonna go to sec 4...(repeat as many times as it takes for excitement to wear off) */song and dance* see you guys in 4-6, 2004!! ^_^

i think a few people will get retained. i hope this is the best path for you guys to take and you all have my 100% support in the future, for whatever (legal) things you choose to do.

my results weren't as bad as i had imagined. i still passed 5 overall. condemned little *bleep*ing history paper...why can't i switch scores for terms 2 and 4? at least i may pass if that happens. *note: extra class on the week of the 10th. 1430 - 1630 (confirm this asap). test on the 14th, singapore history. checking answers on 18th, 0800 - 1000*

so now i have a 4 day weekend. need to catch up on a lot of things, like sleep, maths etc. etc. *note: get pocket-friendly version of KH* maybe i'll go to east coast tomorrow and stay the weekwnd...so my idea will be put to good use.

life rocks.

a little quiz i did:
godd
You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."


Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

garg
You are Form 4, Gargoyle: The Fallen.

"And The Gargoyle mended his wings from the
blood of the fallen so he could rise up from
imprisonment. With great speed and
resourcefulness, Gargoyle made the world his
for the taking."


Some examples of the Gargoyle Form are Daedalus
(Greek) and Mary Magdalene (Christian).
The Gargoyle is associated with the concept of
success, the number 4, and the element of wood.
His sign is the new moon.

As a member of Form 4, you are a creative and
resourceful individual. You are always
thinking of possible solutions to problems you
face and you generally choose one that is
right. Much of your success comes from your
ability to look at things a little differently
than everyone else. Gargoyles are the best
friends to have because they don't always take
things for face value.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

ok...so i took the quiz twice. they stole FF8's summon's pictures.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

Been working on this camp proposal for the last 10, 000 years. ok...so it was only close to 3 hours...but it feels hell of a lot longer. if mrs long doesn't like it, too bad. for me that is. oh well, i did it to the best of my ability and i wasn't 100% clear on all the details, so there's obvoiusly room for improvement. oh well...i'll see her tomorrow and ask for her opinion.
I feel happy. jubilant. elated. on clouds one to 3 million. on the top of the world. i'm laughing like an idiot.nothing can spoil this day. not even getting into 5000 arguments with my closest friends (which i did not do btw). not even losing all my possessions in some screwy fire caused by a gas leak. ok...so that might spoil my day a little, but the main idea is i feel *GREAT*. the reason is simple: I PASSED ENGLISH.

although my compre got 9/25, my summary (which incidentally was marked by TERENCE GOH) got 19.5/25, bringing my total to 28.5/50. if mrs. terminator bala (tm) thinks i have a case and gives me the marks i asked for, my total is 30.5/50.

speech writing really got screwed up...15/30. apparently, i have "very simple language" and i'm "too vague". oh well. long essay got 19/30. god knows how i did it as i was BS-ing through the whole damn thing. i wanted to write another draft, but had no time. edwin heng must have been in a chao-good mood when he marked my script.

so my total's...61.5/110, which translates to...55.9~56/100 (this is assuming my appeal isn't successful). AND I PASS!! life is good.

dm toh was right...i 100% passed chinese, with a score of 61. the way he marked ying yong wen was damn nice...14/20. lim tow wee marked my compo (bao zhang, which >80% of the level did), and gave me 44/70. goh hock meng marked paper 2, and gave 63/110 (ok, so i could have done better). this adds up to 121/200, ie. 60.5~61/100. yay.

i shuld be able to pass english overall + at least 3 other subjects (chem, physics, chinese). so i guess i should be immune to HBK (hak boon kia, tm) and the 40 retainee places.

some replies...
biao tang ge: I bring over some of my exam papers let you try...see what you get.

sherman: Thanks for the comment on your blog. you didn't do too badly either. ^_^

Chelsea: Homura is the guy with his wrists chained up and with one blue and one gold eye. he's the Toushin Taishi (fighting god) who took over from Nataku. also, may i know how you got here?

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Wonderful. now the record's pass 4 out of 7.guess which subject's being witheld? ENGLISH. the most important one. teachers are masters of torture, keeping back the one thing that determines our fate. if i don't pass english, it's bye-bye cat high.

this sucks. i only needed about 7.5 marks more to pass a maths. not too bad, considering the effort put in. on a happier note, dm toh confirmed i passed chinese. glory. but i did fail combined humans though (expected).

ok. after i hit the post/publish button, i will *NOT* worry about this any more. what's done is done, no changing it.

Monday, October 20, 2003

Damn teachers can mark fast. today already got back 5 results. here they are:

a maths: 44/100. quite expected. actually, better than expected. i was thinking about <=40...oh well.

maths: 63/100. not expected. this was a rather lucky break for me, as i didn't put in 100% effort. mr leong was kinda happy with my perforrmance. ^_^

chem: 70/100. a bit low for my standard, was aiming for >75...but oh well. this isn't too bad either.

history: 30/100. wowee...guess who fails overall because of this? i seriously don't have enough content to back up my viewpoint. i'm going to pull that up over the holidays.

physics: 61/100. a little worse than i expected. was going for >65. thanks to the holy mr siau (tm), i got the 1 in 61...because my J looked like an F and he deducted a mark, then gave it back. add-on: i'll never forget that 15 X 20 = 450

*results may be subject to change. this is not the overall, only the final year results*

now my hopes are up. if i do fail english, i think i'll have this *slight* chance to pass 5 others...i'm praying.

got scolded by chung lee siang today. she was unhappy about the physics results as we "failed by the hundreds," while the sec 4s "only had 11 failures." i was ignoring her comments as i passed (see above), but only started to feel a *little* bad when she talked about distinctions. but i have next year to work up.

my congratulations to those that passed, and deepest sympathies to those who failed. hopefully, 3/6 stays together as 4/6 2004 with no missing people. and before i forget...

CONGRATS JOACHIM!!!
Finally pass chem. ^_^


add-on: new song. this is really quite inspirational. if needed, lyrics can be foung by either scrolling WAY down, or going to http://animelyrics.com/anime/gsaiyuki/openupyourmind.htm

Sunday, October 19, 2003

8 hours before i have to wake up tomorrow. obviously, i won't get enough sleep.

i'm a little confused here...from my cousin, i heard the holiday begins in 3 weeks, while my friend says it begins in 2. anyone care to clarify this?

i've been reading through a few friend's blogs recently. hope all the people having fights/arguments/whatever and those feeling sad/depressed/bored/whatever solve the problem/get over it soon. try to stay happy/positive ok?? ^_^

Saturday, October 18, 2003

If i'm not mistaken, there's 2 more weeks until the holidays. oh well.

still must go back to school to do various acts of BS. example: continuing chinese. oh well...when dm's your chinese teacher, you don't have it easy. *note: get the 4A textbook*

they're going to go through the exam answers with us. probably to psycho us into a nervous wreck while wondering about our maths results. teachers are *SO* sadistic sometimes...

oh well, that'll do for now...i really have mixed feeling about going back to school on monday, but i'll elaborate later.

Friday, October 17, 2003

Well. 17/10 comes but once a year, like all other days. but i look foward to it more than any other day of the year, excluding the holidays and a few other *special* days. why? here's a hint...look at my profile.

ever felt bad, receive a message from someone, and suddenly it's all ok? well, it does happen. in fact, it happened today. the person who sent the message may never know this, but my day got a whole lot brighter. thanks, if you come here. people can have a miraculous effect on others sometimes, be it positive or negative.

i'm a little sad. maybe depressed. nah...not really, but sad all the same. yet, from a casual observer's point of view...it's all fine...reminds you of Soujiro, no? always smiling, but inside's a mess.

looking at all my posts, i'm amazed at all the things which go through my brain in my day-to-day life. if i didn't have this, i would surely have exploded with all that excess stuff in my brain. besides, html designing takes your mind off *other stuff* and gives you a break. must be why i change the stuff around here so much. helps me forget unpleasant and unwanted stuff...until i'm 18 and can drink, anyway.

sometimes, words aren't enough to express what you feel. they don't convey enough feeling. the voice is still the best way to get the full message, meaning, tone, purpose and all, across. i wish i had the courage to use it in front of the target to tell them my honest feelings though.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAN!!!!!!
Best wishes to you for the years ahead. ^_^

no school for the remainder of the week. so slack. just the way i like it. but i'm starting to feel bored and confused. weird combination of feelings, but it so happens that's what's going on with me now. oh well. i'll give myself ONE WEEK to think of this (personal problem), then make my final decision.

NOTE: get a relatively big jar and >1000 of those paper strips. *post this in every message till you do so.*

*add-on*
Guess who's bored? credits to Brendan.
1. What is your full name: Is it really necessary?
2. nicknames? Ask sec. 2/5 2002.
3. b~day? 17/10
4. Age: Going on 15?
5. Sex: Male.
6. Social Security: It's there.

7. Where were you born? Singapore
8. where you live now: Singapore.
9. Zodiac sign: Libra, if I'm not mistaken
10. What grade are you in and what school do you attend? Sec 3, chs.
11. What are your parents names: Once again, is it really necessary?
12. siblings and their ages? Brother, 12 Sister, 10.
13. do you get along: yes...unless I'm paired with *certain* people.
14. Pets: None.
15. Righty or Lefty: Righty.
16. bedtime: Before 1.50 am on schooldays, anytime for holidays.
17. Email: *We are unable to process your request. Leave a message on tagboard and we'll get back to you*
18. Hair color: Black.
19. Eye color: Brown-ish black
20. Do you wear contacts or glasses? Glasses
21. Do you have any piercings? No.
22. tattoos: In the future maybe.
23. scars: Most significant one on my right knee. Some tupid sharp car exhaust pipe.
24. Height: 170++?
25. Do you wear any rings: Not in school.
26. What shoes do you wear: New balance?
27. drove a car: No(t yet).
28. met someone new: Almost all the time.
29. done laundry: Yes...
30. cried: Last 8 months maybe?
31. wore a skirt: *blink* No.
32. How are you today? Alive and well.
33. wearing: The normal stuff.
34. thinking about: Someone.
35. What does your hair look like at the moment? Good question.
36. What song are you listening to right now? 1/2, the 2nd Rurouni Kenshin opening theme.
37. What was the last thing you ate and/or drank? Ate: Forgot. Drank: H2O.
38. How is the weather right now? Dark...it's night after all.
39. Last person u talked to on the phone: My mum.
40. watching: The "happy birthday" marquee go back and forth...back and forth...
41. what time is it: 2320


*****DO YOU BELIEVE IN ******
42. yourself: Yes. Unless it's a maths paper.
43. friends: Yes, sometimes more than I believe in myself.
44. best friends of the opposite sex: Yes.
45. santa claus: Depends on my mood.
46. tooth fairy: Sounds too...American for Singaporeans.
47. angels: Yes.
48. ghosts: Yes
49. aliens: Yes
50. God: Yes. The major thing that helped me through the final years.

*******MORE ABOUT YOU!*******
51. what are the last four digits of ur phone number? 3729 or 6235
52. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Technically, I stole it. But Brendan's cool.
53. how do you eat an Oreo? Bite, chew, swallow.
54. If you were a crayon what color would you be: Blue. Or this really nice shade of silver/platinum.
55. Have you ever almost died: No, don't intend to.
56. What's the best advice ever given to you? Kill the Buddha as you meet him. Kill the father as you meet him. Never allow yourself to be captivated by anyone, just live as yourself in the way you are...or stop being an idiot.
57. Have you ever won any special award? No(t yet).
58. Do you like to dance? Only in the privacy of...somewhere private.
59. Worst sickness you've ever had? Gastric flu.
60. What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? You wouldn't believe it...
61. What's the next CD you are going to buy: *coughdownloadcough*
62. What sport you hate the most: That depends...
63. Place for a dream house: some ulu, yet hi-tech place.
64. How many kids do you want to have? 2?
65. Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone: Sprained my right ankle twice.
66. Who do you tell your dreams to: The air...in hopes of it carrying it to god and that other person.
67. What are you most scared of? Losing that someone...or dying. But right now, being retained.
68. How many tv's do you have in your house? 3?
69. Do you have your own? Well...technically it's not MINE, but yes.
70. do you have your own phone line? Yes.
71. do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No.
72. Are you a flirty person? Not on your life.
73. Are you shy? Depends on who the other party is.
74. Are you outgoing? Refer to above answer.
75. Who is the loudest friend you have? Anyone in sec. 2/5, 2002 or sec. 3/6, 2003
76. Who is the quietest friend you have? Dunno.
77. Who looks the worst in the morning: Never bothered to look.
78. Who's the messiest eater: Refer to above answer.
79. Who's the slowest eater: Refer to above 2 answers.
80. Who's the bossiest: refer to above 3 answers.
81. Who is the 'mom' outta your friends: Refer to...ah forget it. I don't know.
82. who are the top 3 hottest guys/girls u know: Him X 3, Her X 3
83. who's the weirdest: Joachim (no offense ^_^)
84. who is the funnest: Brendan, or Joachim
85. who do you go to for advice?: My reflection. Sounds stupid, but works.
86. who do you think about most when you're not happy? That one person who can make it better.
87. who do you cry with? My reflection
88. what's the best feeling in the world? The one which involves the BIG heart. ^_^
89. when's the last time you cried: Good question.
90. is cheerleading a sport? I think so...
91. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? Never tried, but I'm guessing 250.
92. Which came first the chicken or the egg: One of each appeared at the same time.
93. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: Root beer.
94. vanilla or chocolate: Chocolate.
95. Love or lust: A balanced mixture of both.
96. silver or gold: Silver.
97. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?: *blink* No.
98. What's your favorite color: Blue/silver.
99. What's your favorite band/singer: Savage Garden, but anything that sounds good is fine.
100. What do you dream about: *You don't want to know...*
101. Favorite song? Mirai - Open Up Your Mind.
102. Do you like to sing in the shower: No
103. Had an imaginary friend: Does talking to no one in particular count?
104. Wanted to "hook up" with a friend: MAAAAAAAAAAAYbe...
105. Cried during a movie: No.
106. Had a crush on a teacher: No...generation gap and all.
107. What is the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning?: Nani?? *Yes, I think in Japanese sometimes*

*****Preference*****
108. Sleep on your back, stomach or side: Side or back.
109. Adidas, Nike, or Reeboks?: Adidas or Reebok I suppose...not really particular.
110. Croutons or Bacon Bits?: Say what??
111. 2 doors or 4 (on a car)?: 2 for style, 4 for family.
112. Bridges or Tunnels? Depends on the physical features of the land.
113. One pillow or two?: As many as possible.
114. Salt or butter flavored popcorn?: Butter...or honey.
115. Fizzy or still water?: Still.
116.Red whine or white wine?: White.

*****Word Association - (1st Thing That Comes To Mind)*****
117. Rubber Gloves: Clean?
118. Disney Character: Kingdom Hearts.
119. Fast Food place: Bright colours.
120. Board Game: Boring..."bored" game...
121. Rock: Throw
122. Blue: Nightcrawler...or my stationery.
123. Wet: Water.
124. Cry: Comforting.
125. Peanut Butter: EEEEEW.
126. Hay: Straw.
127. Paper: Exam.
128. Wood: Bokken (Wooden Japanese sword).
129. Yellow: Coldplay.
130. Laugh: Joker
131. Ugly: *CENSORED*
132. Happy: Being with *someone*.

******YOU AND LOVE******
133. Do you believe in love? Yes. 100%
134. Do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend? No(t yet).
135. do you have a crush? What's it to you? If you must know...maybe.
136. who is your crush? ERRRRRRRR...I didn't see this question...*whistle*
137. are you sending this to your crush? No.
138. do you believe in love at first sight? YES.
139. What song do you want played at your wedding: Something slow, touching...the usual stuff.
140. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: ERRRRRRRRRRRRR...refer to Q 136's answer.
141. Do you find yourself attractive: Nah.
142. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes.
143. are you too shy to ask someone out? Depends on who the person is.


*****When was the last time you...*****
205. Took a shower: 3 hours ago.
206. Watched Bambi: Never. So sue me
207. Got a real letter: If a card counts as a letter, last week. If not, a few years ago.
208. Wished upon a star: Pri 6...forgot why.
209. Asked someone for forgiveness: A few months back.
210. Hugged someone: Forgot the exact date...but somewhen in the past few months.
211. Kissed someone: *blink* *whistle*
212. Ate something: 1900 hrs, today
213. Called someone: 22-something hrs, today

*******What is your...*******
214. Good luck charm: A checkers peice (don't ask) and my favourite (and only) ring.
215. Bedroom like: Normal I suppose...
216. Favorite Breakfast food: I don't take breakfast.
217. Favorite lunch food: Depends on mood.
218. Best thing that happened to you today: A message from *someone*.

*****What do you think about the following*****
219. Abortion: Sad.
220. Homosexuality: It's ok...just open up your mind and accept it.
221. Rap: Too fast for my liking.
222. Classical: Good.
223. Oldies: Depends on what kind. But they generally have funny lyrics.
224. Swing: Anti-Nazi movement.

**********PICK ONE: THIS OR THAT**********

225. lights on/off: On.
226. sun or rain or snow? All when they happen at appropriate times.
227. mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (burger king): BK.
228. do you like scary movies or happy movies better? Happy.
229. backstreet boys or NSYNC? Boyzone/Savage Garden. ^_^
230. on the phone or in person: Depends on situation.
231. summer or winter: Refer to above answer
232. chocolate or white milk: none. I hate milk. ^_^
233. CD or tape: CD...or MP3.
234. hugs or kisses: Both, depending on situation and person.
235. cake or pie: Cake.
236. cats or dogs: Both.
237. mud or jello wrestling? Nani??
238. skiing or boarding? Never tried both.
239. day or night? Depends on situation.
240. sunset or sunrise: Both, depending (once again) on situation.
241. diamond or pearls: Diamonds are forever...and so is the Nature Boy. ^_^ */stupid wwe reference*

*******YOUR FAVES*******

242. candy: M&Ms?
243. Beverage: H2O...or green tea.
244. cartoon characters: Tom & Jerry.
245. sport(s): Bowling and a *TINY* bit of soccer.
246. Song: Mirai - Open Up Your Mind.
247. favorite actor or actress?: Jim Carrey...funnyman. ^_^
248. Favourite movie: Bruce Almighty. ^_^
249. tv show: Almost any anime.
250. Favourite food: I'm not particular.
251. ice cream: Anything...except vanilla.
252. subject: Chem!! ^_^
253. shampoo: Dunno. I use anything.
254. favourite month: June/December.
255. favourite number: 5.
256. favourite person to talk to online: That person's rarely online now...V_V

******HAVE YOU EVER******
257. cut your hair yourself: No.
258. been on stage: Yes.
260. Ever thought an animated character was hot: Yes.
261. kept a secret from everyone: Yes.
262. been hurt emotionally: Yes.
263. been in a car accident: No, don't intend to.
264. put a body part on fire for amusement: No...I'm not Pyro.
265. drank: Yes.
266. smoked: No, don't intend to.
267. broke the law? Yes.
268. ran from the cops: No...I'm good enough to stay and get arrested. ^_^ Seriously, I don't get into that kind of trouble.
269. made yourself cry to get outta trouble: No.
270. tried to kill yourself? No, don't intend to.
271. made your self throw up? No, don't intend to.
272. ever been in love: Does unrequited love count??
273. loved someone so much it made you cry: Yes.
Finishing Time: 0000 hrs.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

I'd like the whole world to know that i'm an idiot. i just made one of the most idiotic, hovering on moronic, choices of my life. but what the choice is isn't important. I just feel really bad now.

exams are *finally* over. kami-sama's going to receive less requests for blessing i suppose...from students anyway.

here's a question: would you rather risk losing a friend and let him/her know something, or keep his/her friendship and your secret? assume this secret is something they 85% would not like to hear and you are quite good friends. pls let me know what you think via tagboard.

NOTE: get a relatively big jar and >1000 of those paper strips. *post this in every message till you do so.*

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

KUZU RYU SEN!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i'm stressed...what gave it away?

last paper. after that, we go nuts. poor lit students. got at least another hour after the rest before they can go nuts. waiting is the hardest part...as of 2135 hrs, 14/10/03, there are 13++ more hours to freedom. i'll be asleep for 6-7 of these hours, revising for 2-3 of these hours and spending the rest of the time counting down. oh well.

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As of now, history's history, ie. the exam's over. ^_^

maths tomorrow. apparently, i didn't do too well for a maths. oh well, it's expected. not that i can take this lying down, but a maths is sort of hopeless for me. note: use holidays to study for a maths.

normal maths should be easier. then again, mrs long and denis set the paper, so i don't know what to expect.

right now, some slack time then go all out for maths. it's the last paper. must do well.

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Monday, October 13, 2003

EEEEYYYYYAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

if you haven't guessed, i'm studying for history. my brain's burning. still got singapore and mu to cover. *this is a self-motivational message* I WILL NOT SPOT FOR THE EXAMS. I GOT 8/25 FOR DOING SO. I MUST PASS THIS. SPOTTING IS BAD FOR HEALTH. NEVER SPOT ANSWERS. STUDY THE WHOLE DAMN THING, EVEN IF IT KILLS YOU. */self-motivational message*

i must pass this. if not, i fail. sounds stupid, but makes perfect sense. ^_^

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Sunday, October 12, 2003

Wow...i love following links. saw so many old pri sch friends' blogs. all of them seen to be doing quite well. best wishes to them.

haven't started history. oops...not good. not good at all. lucky tomorrow no school. whole day devoted to chao pia history.

went downstairs to play (or practise, rather) soccer with my dad and brother. haven't done that for 10000 years. felt good though.

i'm looking for the perfect song to listen to as i do my stuff on the computer. nothing seems suitable, and even if they are, they are for 1 time only. any reccomendations?

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Friday, October 10, 2003

Chem wasn't that tough. feel stupid for believing rumors. all i didn't know was how to spell the really long name of this one indicator...phenol...thingy.

weekend!! it brings 2 things: some relaxation and study for history. while all the other humans people are happily slacking, history people (aka. me) have to come back for 2 hours 15 mins to do the final year. oh well.

right now, i have half a day of rest, relaxation and whatever.

*add on*
i sort of feel that i post too often. is this true?? i really have no idea. on average, i'm clocking in an average of 1 or 2 posts per day, when finals are going on. i really should cut down.

Thursday, October 09, 2003

I feel so...*what's the word...*frustrated today. physics was really (and i mean REALLY) smooth-sailing. sure to pass.

after the paper, went to j8 to grab breakfast/lunch with berwyn, keng wee & jeffrey. helped berwyn in chem, then he left. now here's the frustrating part.

i was supposed to meet someone else for studying, but he had a geog paper. so, i waited for him at bishan mrt. for TWO GODDAMN HOURS, i WAITED LIKE AN IDIOT. turned out he forgot, because i saw him on the bus, headed for somewhere else. 2 hours of my life spent at bishan mrt. wow.

chem paper tomorrow. not to sound overconfident, but even if i fail, i pass overall. ^_^ go me.

*add-on*
just heard that there'll be a killer paper. As long as i can maintain the a standard, i'll be happy. *slap* don't get complacent. just look through everything a few more times. it won't kill.

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

I feel the need to write. either blog or something else, so i went for blog. i guess it's thought-emptying day.

First up, a paper on some Hiten Mitsurugi techniques.

Ryu Tsui Sen, aka. long2 chui2 shan3 (Hammering Dragon Flash?)
Your basic air->ground maneuver. Well, not so basic. It is a part of the Hiten Mitsurugi Ryu (Henceforth referred to as the HMR) after all. It involves gaining great height and descending HARD on you enemy's head/shoulder. This is Kenshin's personal favourite move. *can anyone translate this?*

There's a variation which involves a downward stab, ie sword perpendicular to floor, instead of the usual slash, which has the sword almost parallel to the ground.

Ryu Kan Sen, aka. long2 juan3 shan3 (Twisting Dragon Flash?)
After evading an attack, you and your enemy often end up back-to-back, facing different directions. This attack brings your sword down on your enemy's neck from that position.

Variation: You run towards the attack, dodge it by ducking or going out of its reach, then bring your blade down on the neck.

Ryu Sou Sen, aka. long2 chao2 shan3
A downgraded Kuzu Ryu Sen. This hits any of the nine vital points (head, right shoulder, left shoulder, chest, right arm, left arm, groin, right leg and left leg) at random and at high speeds.

Variation: This hits only one point, but at higher speed.

Ryu Shou Sen, aka. long2 xiang2 shan3 (Flying Dragon Flash)
Your basic ground->air attack. Sword is held in both hands, parallel to the ground. You jump up and impact the incoming attack. This is also used right after the Ryu Tsui Sen when necessary.

Sou Ryu Sen, aka. shuang1 long2 shan3 (Twin Dragon Flash)
A battoujutsu is followed up by the movement of the saya (sheath), preventing any "open spots" for enemies to attack.

Variation: The saya is used first as a distraction.

Do Ryu Sen, aka. tu3 long2 shan3 (Ground Dragon Flash)
The sword is swung at high speed above the ground. The force causes dirt and rock to "shoot" forward, effectively making this a ranged attack.

Kuzu Ryu Sen, aka. jiu3 tou2 long2 shan3 (Nine-Headed Dragon Flash)
This strikes all nine vital points (mentioned above) simultaneously. There are only 2 known ways of defense: the Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki, or the speed of the Shukuchi. Only Tenken no Soujiro has done the latter. Incidentally, this is Hiko-sama's favourite move. To quote him, "Every defensive stance is meant to defend one of the vital points. With the speed of the HMR, no defense is too strong for the Kuzu Ryu Sen."

Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki, aka. tian1 xiang2 long2 shan3 (Heaven-Ascending Dragon Flash)
The ougi, or final technique of the HMR. Involves doing a battoujutsu at high speeds, leading with your left leg. You must have absolutely no fear of death to pull this off. If the first strike is evaded, the speed creates a vacuum, which keeps the opponent immobilized. To quote Hiko-sama again, "The Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki is like a dragon (which is the background you see here), devastating its opponents with its razor-sharp claws. Should it be deflected, the wind of its passage renders the opponent helpless, unable to move."

This ougi also helps to determine the new Hiko Seijuro. If a HMR pupil is able to use this to counter his master's Kuzu Ryu Sen, he inherits the mantle and identity of Hiko Seijuro. This move is so powerful that either one must die, the master or the pupil. *This is not true for Kenshin and the present Hiko-sama.*


Now, physics.
So....it wasn't so bad. i have a dream. a dream of passing a maths. a dream of passing combined humans. with some luck, these dreams will come true.

papers today. suicidal. i may be able to pass combined humans, but i'm praying for a maths. who knew ms. chan was a john lennon fan?? his song came out as a source. thank god it was sbq. if structured came out, i'd just wither and die.

a maths was (almost) a killer. from q8 onwards, i died. if i can pass by q1-7, amen to me. as long as i don't drop any subjects...

tomorrow: physics. shouldn't be too hard...as long as the definitions and formulas sink in.

Amen to us all in this time of pain.

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

HERE COMES THE PAIN.

a maths and combined humans. even a saru (monkey) stands a better chance of passing than me. i'm going to study, pray and hope for the best.

Note to everyone (especially my better friends): best wishes. i'm praying for you.

Monday, October 06, 2003

I've made an important decision...i'm scrapping the clock in an effort to speed up loading time. hope it works...

today was rather boring. a maths/ss/elec on wednesday. this is a classic case of buay hiao si. oh well. i have to study:
- differentiation
- indices, surds, log
- trigo
- tourism
- industry
- agriculture
- everything in ss

actually, i'm quite prepared to fail ss. it's the only subject i'll 100% fail. hell, i even stand a chance to pass chinese and at least 1 maths. as long as my failures are 100% humans, i still pass 6, which means that i'll stand a good chance of being promoted. but i have to ace both maths papers to make up for previous terms.

Sunday, October 05, 2003

i realize i've nothing to post now, so to fill up space, here are the lyrics to the song you should be able to hear on this site.

1/2 (Rurouni Kenshin 2nd opening theme)
senaka ni mimi wo pitto tsukete.....dakishimeta
kyoukaisen mitai na karada ga jama da ne
dokka ichai-sou na no sa

damatte'ru to chigire-sou dakara, konna kimochi
hankei san ME-TORU inai no sekai de motto
motto hittsuitetai no sa

kawaribanko de PEDARU wo koide
ojigi no himawari toorikoshite
gungun kaze wo nomikonde, sou tobe-sou jan
hajimete kanjita kimi no taion
dare yori mo tsuyoku naritai
attakai RIZUMU
niKO no shinzou ga kuttsuite'ku

kuchibiru to kuchibiru me to me to te to te
kami-sama wa nanimo kinshi nanka shitenai
aishite'ru.....aishite'ru.....aishite'ru

atashi mada koritenai
otona ja wakan'nai
kurushite setsunakute
misetakute PANKU shichau
soppo mite matte'ru kara
POKKE no mayotte'ru te de
hoppe ni furete
koishite'ru CHIKARA ni mahou wo kakete

[Instrumental]

itsumo issho ni toomawari shiteta kaerimichi
daidai ga koboreru you na sora ni
nandaka HAPPY & SAD

atashi-tachi tte doushite umareta no,
hanbun da yo ne
hitori de kangaete mo miru kedo
yappa hetappi na no sa

mienaku naru hodo tooku ni
BO-RU wo nagereru tsuyoi kata
urayamashikute otoko no ko ni naritakatta
sunda mizu no you ni yawarakaku
dare yori mo tsuyoku naritai
chiccha na goro mitai
hen ne namida koborete'ku

kuchibiru to kuchibiru me to me to te to te
onaji mono onaji kanjikata shite'ru no
aishite'ru.....aishite'ru.....aishite'ru

atashi mada koritenai
otona ja wakan'nai
todokanai tte iwaretatte
kono mama JANPU shitai
BAIBAI no KISU suru kara
saigo no ippo no kyori
gutte daite
taiyou ga zutto shizumanai you ni

[Instrumental]

ikKO no yuuhi potsun to futari de mite'ta
kirei dake domo sa
nanka ienai ne nanka tarinai ne

NOSUTORADAMUSU ga yogen shita toori
kono hoshi ga
bakuhatsu suru hi wa hitotsu ni naritai
attakai RIZUMU
niKO no shinzou ga kuttsuite'ku

kuchibiru to kuchibiru, me to me to te to te
kami-sama wa nanimo kinshi nanka shitenai
aishite'ru.....aishite'ru.....aishite'ru
atashi mada koritenai
otona ja wakan'nai
kuyashikute setsunakute
misetakute PANKU shichau
soppo mite matte'ru kara
POKKE no mayotte'ru te de
hoppe ni furete
koishite'ru CHIKARA ni mahou wo kakete
taiyou ga zutto shizumanai you ni

*it's a really wonderful song.

Saturday, October 04, 2003

BIG CHANGE!!!

as you can see, there's a nice picture of a dragon now. allow me to explain the significance of this dragon to RK.

this dragon is the hiten mitsurugi ryuu. literally translated, the hiten mitsurugi dragon. this dragon is supposed to represent the power of the hiten mitsurugi ryuu. and i thought it looked cool. ^_^
Extra maths class today. not much fun.exams start on wednesday again. somebody save me...or not. let me experience sitting in the hall for exams first. sounds a little like harry potter actually, should be quite fun.

i don't really have much to say now, so i guess i'll update later.

Friday, October 03, 2003

Side note: Joachim, if you ever come by here, the link to the song is here.

To download it, go here, right-click "openup" and choose "save target as".

if the lyrics site is unavailable, come here, click on the lyrics section and look for "open up your mind".
Dm toh is my second lord and (literal) saviour. First being Hiko-sama of course. i labelled my ying yong wen question wrongly, but he told me it was all right and he would help me change it, but it would get 0 in the o's. so, all together now, ALL HAIL DM TOH!!!!

chinese wasn't as hard as i thought it would be. thank kami-sama that i had a premonition to look at dan wu. at least i'm assured of 1/110 marks.

so...monday and tuesday's a break of sorts, but we still have to go back to school. wednesday comes a maths and combined humans. can you say 100% failure?? oh well...we'll let fate decide as usual.
*filler*

Thursday, October 02, 2003

First day of exams...oh boy. kami-sama's going to receive a lot more messages now, most from me asking him for blessing.

CHINESE TOMORROW!!!!!!! I'm slightly consoled by the fact that dm toh wrote some encouraging words in my ying yong wen book, but i have this strange feeling i'll die anyway. need to chao pia chinese later. *almost typed "tomorrow"...what am i thinking??* if i can score for paper 1 (dm makes it sound so easy...kami-sama knows how he does it), zao ju and li jie, i'll stand a chance of passing.

some notes:
- bring home elec geog and physics.
- study for the aforementioned subjects.
- pray to kami-sama more often. *in case you haven't figured it out, kami-sama means god in japanese*
- must...pass...english...

*de-stressing and thought-emptying to make room for chinese knowledge*
i screwed up my compo. no evidence of planning. c5-c6. OHNO!!! it's quite funny...we weren't allowed to use correction fluid in paper 1, but we were for paper 2. now all i have to do is find out who's allergic to correction fluid and either bribe or assisinate them.

i guarantee that mrs. terminator bala(tm) will not be able to find fault with my compre script. i spent 3 lines on a 1 mark question, making sure she couldn't fault me in any way. the only thing she can blame me for is untidy writing...but that's my natural font. so sue me.

for the first time in my life, i got invigilated by maurice cheong. now this isn't a big deal, but he reminds me of danny the ss god(tm). maybe it's the voice and character. who knows? i better stop thinking along this line, or my twisted little brain will get the wrong idea.

so that's it for today...once again, kami-sama bless all of us who are currently suffering from exam pressure.

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Side-note: thanks to bobby yong. i know this isn't the best place to thank him, but he saved me from disciplinary action.
Morale booster today...i did quite well for both science tests that are to be included in final year!! *dance* i'm just going to pass english and both sciences.

speaking of english...

paper tomorrow. as long as no inference questions (which i thought belonged to history) come out, i should be able to get a decent score. but with MRS. TERMINATOR BALA(tm) marking our compre scripts, maybe i'm better off deciding to pass 5 other subjects instead. we'll let fate see about that.

must go for maths and physics help. both are logic-related, but maths is so much tougher. only kami-sama knows why. denis is extremely enthusiastic about maths...understandable, but he should spare a thought for our other subjects as well. maybe i'll be forced to drop a maths. i hope not, but you never know.

HBK(tm) said that he would try to fail as many of us as possible. wonderful, no? just the encouragement we need. i really need to do well so i can go up without any worries, unlike the girl dm toh told us about. oh well. i'm starting to let depression get to me, so i better stop here.