6:15pm. as good a time as any to start on my year-end post. without any further ado, here we go:
to start off, the theme for my 2005 would most probably be "new beginnings", although there is no such thing as a 100% new beginning because of the relationships and connections carried over from secondary school. maybe a more suitable theme would be something i stole from the pre-u seminar: NENO - new engagements, new opportunities.
leaving cat high was hard, i'll admit. that's why i still go back to visit every now and then. also, settling down into CJC was worse. from being the biggest fish in the pond, we were moved to the lake, where even bigger fishes reside. transition is tough, but the blow is often softened by certain factors in the environment, such as familiar old friends, or nice new ones.
this year has also seen me make some really important decisions, one of them being my choice of JC. as i've said before, i'll never stop questioning my decision of picking CJC over SA, not until i see the As on my result slip, at least. i guess being in CJC for the first intake sort of influenced my decision. there are many instances where i've made wrong choices, but i've been fortunate enough to be able to rectify the problem later, and for that, i'm grateful.
being in CJC for a whole year has been kind of fun. the old impression i had was the high birth/abortion rate stereotype that's been around for quite some time. heck, even on the first day of school, i was dreading spending 10 full weeks there. but after actually being in the school, and experiencing the culture there first-hand, it's become so much more. it's also offered me many opportunities, like the abovementioned pre-u seminar, where i met many wonderful people (important) and found out more about singapore's problems (less important).
i think i've also gained more wisdom (not to be confused with knowledge) this year. from learning how to form and maintain inter-personal relations to acquiring better money-managing skills, to having more independence, i think i've become more ready to handle life after school. not completely ready yet, mind you, but i'm getting there. in addition, i've also grown in spirit. even though i don't have a religion, i've held on to most of my beliefs, even in challenging situations. and i think that makes me that much stronger.
even though it's been quite a good year, there are some regrets. some of these include not scoring a bit better for the o-levels (even though 9 was a pleasant surprise), occasionally overspending, not attending holiday training as often as i'd like, and not making that much of an effort to know some classmates better. but what can be changed will be changed next year. more of that in my first post of 2006, where i draw up new year's resolutions.
in summary, it's mostly been good because i've kept to most of my resolutions for the year. i can't thank everyone enough, for everything they did throughout the year to/for me, whether good or bad. after all, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
before i round off my last post of 2005, here's a little quote on facing fears and being yourself:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously let other people do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
here's looking forward to a better 2006.
to start off, the theme for my 2005 would most probably be "new beginnings", although there is no such thing as a 100% new beginning because of the relationships and connections carried over from secondary school. maybe a more suitable theme would be something i stole from the pre-u seminar: NENO - new engagements, new opportunities.
leaving cat high was hard, i'll admit. that's why i still go back to visit every now and then. also, settling down into CJC was worse. from being the biggest fish in the pond, we were moved to the lake, where even bigger fishes reside. transition is tough, but the blow is often softened by certain factors in the environment, such as familiar old friends, or nice new ones.
this year has also seen me make some really important decisions, one of them being my choice of JC. as i've said before, i'll never stop questioning my decision of picking CJC over SA, not until i see the As on my result slip, at least. i guess being in CJC for the first intake sort of influenced my decision. there are many instances where i've made wrong choices, but i've been fortunate enough to be able to rectify the problem later, and for that, i'm grateful.
being in CJC for a whole year has been kind of fun. the old impression i had was the high birth/abortion rate stereotype that's been around for quite some time. heck, even on the first day of school, i was dreading spending 10 full weeks there. but after actually being in the school, and experiencing the culture there first-hand, it's become so much more. it's also offered me many opportunities, like the abovementioned pre-u seminar, where i met many wonderful people (important) and found out more about singapore's problems (less important).
i think i've also gained more wisdom (not to be confused with knowledge) this year. from learning how to form and maintain inter-personal relations to acquiring better money-managing skills, to having more independence, i think i've become more ready to handle life after school. not completely ready yet, mind you, but i'm getting there. in addition, i've also grown in spirit. even though i don't have a religion, i've held on to most of my beliefs, even in challenging situations. and i think that makes me that much stronger.
even though it's been quite a good year, there are some regrets. some of these include not scoring a bit better for the o-levels (even though 9 was a pleasant surprise), occasionally overspending, not attending holiday training as often as i'd like, and not making that much of an effort to know some classmates better. but what can be changed will be changed next year. more of that in my first post of 2006, where i draw up new year's resolutions.
in summary, it's mostly been good because i've kept to most of my resolutions for the year. i can't thank everyone enough, for everything they did throughout the year to/for me, whether good or bad. after all, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
before i round off my last post of 2005, here's a little quote on facing fears and being yourself:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously let other people do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
here's looking forward to a better 2006.
-thingy of the day: Parting words: If you believe, you will achieve.-
