Well, this is the 3rd leap day i've been in. i missed the 1988 one because i was born 7+ months later. v__v ah well. funny thing is, i don't even remember the feb. 29th of 1996 or 2000. who knows? i may forget this by 2008.

it's a sunday and i'm at home. nothing wrong with that. but it's a sunday and i'm at home with tonsa work left to do. ok, there's a problem. now the bigger problem is, i can't find motivation to do my work!! even though i've been proven wrong 15497856320 times, not that i'm counting, but i still believe in LMMs (last minute miracles). i guess dm toh (or was it mr leong??) was right...by the time you're 16-17, your belief system's really set in stone, and it takes lotsa effort to change it. ah damnitall.

~thingy of the day: 1/2 day tomorrow!!!~

Can we say "yesterday's rolloff was a big goddamn screw-up and i want to forget every single detail as soon as possible"?? yes we can. i'll be spending the whole of sunday evening/night preparing for monday.

and the 2003 o results are out. there was general improvement, except for a slight drop in a maths. the mean national distinction rate for history is almost 90% for special, and almost 80% for express. this now means that the school will be ranked 10th to 12th. and the 2004 o's result is supposed to bring it to 8th position. immense pressure has now descended upon us, for we are the students sitting for the 2004 o's.

and mr. siau has really gone and become a pastor. of all people, it had to be him. i guess 3-6 '03 affected him worse than i thought. everyone in the student body who heard of it couldn't believe it. me included. but oh well. even though i'm not too happy with it, as this means my physics grade is now a potential C6, i have to respect it and wish him all the happiness in the world for his future.

looking back, this has been the most screwed up week of the year. and it's only february. what's wrong with me?? i guess god's trying to give me a sign. one of my favouritest teachers left. the irony (word usage??) of it is, he left to serve god. i really don't know what to make of it. "god helps those who help themselves". maybe i was getting too comfortable with mr siau and wang jiunn. maybe god decided to test my confidence by changing the teachers for the 2 subjects i consider myself best in. well, if that was the case, he should have replaced terence goh with serene seah. *touch wood^3million* PLEASE don't let that happen.

in an attempt to direct the mood in a more positive direction,
HAPPY 4TH BRENDAN!!!!!
may your once-in-4-years birthday be so memorable that the memory will last you to your 5th and beyond. ^__^

~thingy of the day: The sharpshooter submission hold is EXTREMELY useful against people who ask the wrong questions.~

Survey time (once again)...

Message: BASICS
001) Name: *You did not see this question. Go away*
002) D.O.B.: 17/10
003) Location: Singapore
004) Religion: Religionless
005) Occupation: student
006) Contact: 92721228
001) Hair: Black mostly, some white in between
002) Eyes: Black/dark brown under light
003) Height: 173++??


STYLE
001) Clothing: Anything I pull out of the mess that my clothes are in
002) Music: Can we say "Japanese"??
003) Make-up: None
004) Body art: No(t yet)


RIGHT NOW
001) Wearing: Normal homey clothes
002) Listening to: It's Gonna Rain
003) Thinking of : My immense workload

LAST THING YOU...
001) Bought: Iced milo
002) Ate and drank: Standard dinner things
003) Read: Juliano's blog (where I pirated this ^__^)
004) Watched on TV: Saiyuki


EITHER / OR
001) Club or houseparty: House Party
002) Tea or coffee: Coffee...black, with tonsa sugar
003) Achiever or slacker: Achiever in some aspects, slacker in others
004) Beer or cider: Both, depending on mood
005) Drinks or shots: Drinks
006) Cats or dogs: Both
007) Single or taken: Single
008) Pen or pencil: Pencil
009) Gloves or mittens: Gloves
010) Food or candy: Both
011) Cassette or CD: MP3 ^__^
012) Coke or Pepsi: Coke
013) Hard or mild alcohol: Mild
014) Matches or a lighter: Lighter. More fun to play with
015) Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: *You know, Juliano, I think these are movie titles* None...never heard of them
016) Rickie lake or Oprah Winfrey: *big blink*


WHERE DO YOU...
001) Eat: Home's the best
002) Dance: During PT. Man the dancing drill is fun
003) Cry: Secretly
004) Wish you were: Japan


HAVE YOU EVER...
001) Dated one of your best friends?: Maybe in the future...
002) Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: Yes. Stupid, no??
003) Drank alcohol?: Yes
004) Done drugs: Medicine...but not the cough syrup thingy.
005) Broken the law: Most notably the ones for jaywalking and littering
006) Ran away from home: Well...*go away...now*
008) Cheated on a test: Yes
009) Skinny dipped: Hotsprings
010) Played truth or dare: Yes
011) Flashed someone: No
012) Mooned someone: Not on your life, pal
013) Kissed someone you didn't know: No
014) Been on a talk/game show: Uh-uh
015) Been in a fight: Yes...most are choreographed though
016) Ridden in a fire truck: No (thank god)
017) Been on a plane: Yes
018) Come close to dying: No...*thanks god again*
019) Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: Well...no. Not even if I had a boy/girlfriend to cheat on
020) Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: An involuntary one to Dexter which almost ended in a judo flip
021) Eaten a worm/mud pie?: No...*I'm beginning to think god loves me*
022) Swam in the ocean: Yes
023) Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: Yes. Bloody horror game/movie combo...


WHAT IS...
001) The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: What cds??
002) Your bedroom like?: General chaos
003) Your favorite thing for breakfast?: Air...but soup if I have the time
004) Your favorite thing for lunch?: Anything goes
005) Your favorite thing for dinner?: *Same as above*
006) Your favorite Restaurant?: This Russian one...forgot the spelling of the name

ARE YOU...
001) A Vegetarian?: Nope
002) A Good Student?: DM Toh said good personality-wise, but I lack discipline
003) Good At Sports?: Arguably yes
004) Wakeboarding/snowboarding: Nope
005) A Good Singer: Well, I can't hit high notes
006) A good Actor/Actress?: Acting stone = 100% pass
007) A deep sleeper?: I nearly fell asleep at assembly due to a shoulder/back massage. What'd you think?
008) A Good Dancer?: Only for the dancing drill
009) Shy?: Mostly
010) Outgoing?: Among friends
011) A good storyteller?: No...I hate expressing myself with my articulation, pronunciation and tone </Terence>
012) Last words?: Smile!!

DM Toh is a good man. he has won all my respect (that he didn't already win) today.

~thingy of the day: Apply CCA knowledge to your daily life. CCA should help you acheive your goal, not become an obstacle. -DM Toh~

This is the first time i have been sent home from school halfway through the first period due to sickness. oh well. there's a first for everything right??

i'm surprised. i don't have as much mental sludge as before. either i'm thinking less (which is good), or my brain's becoming smaller (which is bad).

the study plan sorta worked, i can get up at 4 just for my books. i must love them...or not. i'm getting delirious, and that means i need sleep. bye for now.

~thingy of the day: Never sneeze in front of Mr. Denis Leong.~

10 days to make an impact. can i do it?? i sure hope so. and i also hope that failing 3/8 subjects does not amount to "bad grades", because if it does, one of the few things keeping me living my life will be gone down the drain. then my oxidation number will decrease, and i'll be reduced to existing.

i also plan on trying out a new study method which involves sleeping at 2130 and waking up at 0400 to do work. i plan on trying it out tonight, but my sleeping hours will be greatly reduced, so don't be surprised if i appear zombie-like tomorrow.

i'll fight to the very end. even if i'm half-dead, i'll press on. the only time i'll stop is when the whole world pushes me back. even then, i'll still be smiling.

~thingy of the day: "I can't see the forest because all the trees are blocking me" -Mr. Andrew Pereira~

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ooh...

i think i eliminated all chances of being selected for school team. oh well. even though i appear to take it easy, it doesn't mean i'm not disappointed. because i am. extremely. damn.

luckily, the teachers didn't have anything negative to say during the meet the parents session, except for terence, who said i owe him some assignments, but that's my fault. yay. wheeeeeeee. wahoooo...or not.

it's getting harder to keep smiling.

~thingy of the day: go add me on friendster. and if you have, give me testimonials. ^___________^~

I realize i have lotsa stuff to think about, learn about, learn from, and catch up with. and i'm extremely tired. still gotta worry about english, chinese and geog, whee.

~thingy of the day: When Samurai could not rely on their katanas, they relied on Jujitsu to kill their enemies.~

Time for a jumbo update...i was too tired on friday and was out of the house for most of saturday. here we go...

the school in the morning wasn't so bad. we did a maths and some physics. and the talk on terrorism. how fun. then we burnt our asses off in the sun while eddie lim tried to wow us with his vast vocabulary..."i see no impetus to start the talk" after that, went home to take ball bag to turf city. if there's one thing i can't stand, it's people telling me they're disappointed in me. unfortunately, mrs long just had to tell me that, so i ended up taking an empty ball bag to turf city. luckily, i had company, so i didn't look like a total idiot. the laksa there is WONDERFUL. you don't even need chopsticks. just wow.

cross country was fun. it felt good to run. or am i deceiving myself again?? ok, i'm deceiving myself. running may not be good, but pushing your body is. then went to collect ball at victor's. by the time i got home, it was 2005 hrs. then took a nice long hot bath, checked my mail,wrote up something short and went to sleep because i was tired, but also because i had to get up at 0745 the next day.

charity bowl on saturday, ie yesterday. just went there to cheer and bowl 4 frames. take note, it's FRAMES, not games. total waste of time. then, went back to victor's to watch the team selections, which i could have been in if not for the charity bowl. ah well. so after they finished the 6 games, we had a little conference room, then i bowled 4 games. paying for fun is good. not paying people just for the hell of it, but paying to have a good time.

and i think l left something very important at victor's...i'm a dead man.

~thingy of the day: The Shinsengumi lived by the motto "Aku soku zan" which meant "Kill evil swiftly"~

I guess i ended up being a good boy and going for the cross-country after all. luckily, no injuries were sustained. i'm as tired as a...person who ran 4.5km in 30+ mins. whee. i need sleep.

~thingy of the day: Soujirou's sword was the Kikuichimonji Norimune, which was used by Okita Souji, leader of the 1st squad of the Shinsengumi, in real life.~

The sadness seems to have temporarily dissipated, and that's good...or i think it is.

ca results are...discomforting. it shows that we need to work extra hard to make up for the lack of marks. it also shows that i need to pia for chinese. the results are as follows:

EL: 14 for compre, and if my spying skills don't fail me, i got 25/50 in total.
CL: 28/100?? wow. friggin wow.
Maths: 30/60. yay. i guess i wasn't thinking clearly during the paper.
A Maths: 36/60. whee.

and this is all i know so far. can we say "total disappointment"? yes we can. i'm praying for a miracle in ss and the 2 humans, but i'm hoping i pass physics and don't fail chem. if this goes on, i'll never be a chumpion and bring the school's ranking up with the sole intent of defeating RI in 5 years.

and cross country tomorrow. woohoo. and school in the morning prior to that. wowee. and i have to collect my ball and bring it to safra yishun and then back to victor's again. yay. it's gonna be a good day. look forward to it.

except for the fact that i'm in ENGLISH REMEDIAL.

~thingy of the day: "every day, you have a choice to adopt a positive or a negative attitude. Always choose to be positive" -A HBK story.~

There's a cloud of sadness around me. my friends are all going through one problem or another. not that i'm complaining. i just feel so...affected. aah. it's only febuary and depression is in the air already. it's difficult to keep up the tenken spirit under these circumstances.

well, at least the ca's over. temporary relief. but he prelims draw ever closer, and that's not a good thing. now to get back papers and scream/whine/moan/whatever about the rotten results. i got this feeling i'll only pass 5. instead of my ambitious target of getting at least a c5 for everything. then i'll be demoralized and f9 everything in the first prelim. i can just picture that. personally, an f9 in anything means no future. gah.

looking around, i realize my life isn't as bad as i may make it out to be. maybe i'm just too blind. too blind to see the good things around me. but i suppose seeing them every day has made it seem so...there. if it was to go away, i'd really be lost. i guess i'm disillusioned by all the stuff i've been reading and watching. there's no way a guy can win a girl's heart just by giving her a microwave oven.

ah well. such is life.

~thingy of the day: Soujirou killed his entire family when he was just 8 (yes, EIGHT) years old.~

[10 of your favorite songs at this moment]
1) Sobakasu...both English and Japanese versions.
2) 1/3 Junjou na Kanjou
3) 1/2
4) Open Up your Mind
5) Innocence
6) Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki (aka. Hiko's Theme).
7) Last Christmas (don't ask).
8) One Winged Angel
9) Butterfly Kiss (aka. Groove Adventure Rave 1st opening theme)
10) I Knew I Loved You

[09 things you're looking forward to]
1) To get over with O Levels
2) Graduation
3) Successful in JC appeal
4) Meeting my ideal partner
5) Majoring in Chem.
6) Getting a katana. I swear that's the first thing I'll do when I turn 18.
7) Working life.
8) Retirement.
9) Spending my days quietly on an ulu but hi-tech island.

[08 things you enjoy doing most]
1) Bowling. Although recent team selections have made it not-so-fun
2) Being with those I care for.
3) Being with those who care for me. ^__^
4) Chem equations.
5) Reading.
6) Being sec 4 and tormenting the sec 2s.
7) Thinking.
8) Writing absolute nonsense.

[07 favourite memories]
1) Seeing my grandmother for the last time. It was a Saturday, and she passed away 4 days later.
2) All the times I've been to Macs with anybody.
3) Various outings after holiday training.
4) 2003 Bowling CCA camp.
5) 3-6 '03. Every minute of it.
6) Being promoted to sec 4.
7) Waiting for 156. Believe me, it was fun...or was it??

[06 things you touch everyday]
1) Books.
2) Phone.
3) Keyboard.
4) Clothes.
5) Glasses.
6) Bed.

[05 things you do everyday]
1) Think about the day. Sorta "Day in Review"
2) Think about life in the Meiji era.
3) Think about Kenjutsu.
4) Think about Soujirou
5) Think about various twisted things, like nazi russo space japs. Right, Sherman?? ^__^

[04 things you are good at]
1) Chem. Although I'm not sure if that's still gonna be true without Wang Jiunn.
2) (Arguably,) Bowling.
3) HTML.
4) Thinking.

[03 movies you'd watch over and over again]
1) Bruce Almighty.
2) Last Samurai
3) Rurouni Kenshin OVA.

[02 artists or bands (or celebrity) you've seen live]
1) Some WWE people.
2) Does Jamie Yeo count?

[01 person you'd spend your life with]
1) That's private. ^__^

Life. it can be as strong as steel, hard as diamond, or as fragile as glass. damn. like HBK (the real one this time, not my principal) said, "Everything can change in a second. That's all it takes." how true.

CA's ending next monday, ie tomorrow, as i don't take lit. oh boy. no school on tuesday. watching last samurai on thursday. cross country on friday. team selections on saturday. looks like the week's gonna be pretty packed.

~thingy of the day: Love is a happy thing. It makes us laugh, it makes us sing. It makes us sad,it makes us cry. It makes us seek the reason why. It makes us take, it makes us give. But most of all, it makes us live.~

David: If or when you do read this, do let Sam/her family know that my thoughts are with them ok? Even if I don't know them personally.

Common tests/CA1 royally suck. i got this not-good feeling that i'll pass 5 subs, 6 max. this is not good. passing is supposed to come NATURALLY to me now!! i'm supposed to be aiming for A's, not *passes*. this doesn't look all too bright. oh well. i'll find a way around this...i hope.

pressure's coming in from the cca side as well. team selections on valentine's day. wowee. just...wowee. this sucks. This sucks so badly that it's regurgitating everything it's ever sucked. and we have cross country the day before. how are we expected to hit 200 averages when our muscles are aching like someone did something really bad to them?

and the cross country's not at macritchie...no...it's at turf city (wherever that is) and it's after school. so that means after denis guan us with acid (for all the guys not familiar with chem, that's colloquial for 'suan'...acid...sour...oh forget it.) and some pmsing by the other teachers, we have to run this really long stretch of road or something like that. wow.

i learnt something new today. it's gonna be my favourite phrase on the lanes. "first throw of first frame of first game, in a calm blue ocean scenario."

~thingy of the day: OK, I lied. go here and click on the Kuzu Ryu Sen link. Save it to your computer, and you get to hear the great Hiko Seijurou XIII repeatedly talking about those nine cuts. ~

Well, you'll notice my phone munber no longer has a strikethrough on it, and therefore, you can infer that MY PHONE'S HERE!!! how fun. i'm once again contactable 24hrsday^-1. wheeeeeeeeeeeeee and please send your numbers to me again...my contact data got erased. thanks!! ^__^

tuesdays are good days when dm isn't pmsing. that they are. nothing could possibly go wrong...except maybe i sleep overtime and didn't cram anough for the chinese CA, but i seriously doubt that'll happen. but just in case, *touches wood*

maybe i've been learning from Soujirou, but my smileys are becoming wider. like this: ^__^. i'm gonna trademark this. ^__^

~thingy of the day: There are 9 basic cuts in Kenjutsu, but I've forgotten their names. oops. I'll tell you tomorrow.~