Need to get some thoughts out of my head, and my ducks in a row before the trip. whoever thought of that idiom, anyway? i imagine it must have been some duck hunter. google turned up so many different stories about its origins that i'm not going to bother going down that rabbit hole.

there are about 48 hours remaining until i start the drive to osaka. in that time, i have to:

- wash the car

- withdraw money and change denominations

- clean the house

- settle rubbish disposal

- mail out an amazon return

- do a load of laundry (might push this back until after the trip)

- get souvenirs for my professor and the lab

- pack for the trip

- put more songs into my phone and create a playlist

seems like a lot, but about half the tasks can be done in no time at all. the time-consuming ones would be washing the car, cleaning the house, and doing laundry. because i'm not going to be at home for the next week, i want to get rid of all biodegradable waste on monday, which is rubbish disposal day. also, as a reminder to myself, i absolutely must pack and bring my old passport. they won't give me the new one otherwise, and i'd have to waste time, money, and leave to go down again.

some other things to update you all on...we had a welcome party for the new staff members in the office. about half a year late, but COVID forced us to postpone the original plan, which was to have it in july. i was quite amused at one particular conversation. the new vice-superintendent was asking if i had trouble adapting to the food in japan (despite me being here for almost 2 years already), and that led to a conversation about food that some people can't handle. coriander was brought up as an example, because some people have a genetic mutation that makes it taste like soap to them. he was trying to describe it to me, because he only knew the japanese name and i didn't. he was like, "you know, it's a herb or vegetable used a lot in southeast asia, like in thailand..." after establishing that it was coriander that he had in mind, i added, "yeah, it's used a lot in singapore too" and he followed up with, "oh? have you been to singapore, then?" i froze on the spot in a mixture of disbelief and amusement! my mid-level boss came to the rescue and reminded him that i was in fact singaporean. if i'd had my wits about me, i'd have said "oh yeah, i've been there before. nice place!" pretty sure it was just a slip of his mind, but it was funny nonetheless.

in less happy news, i found an old news article about my late coach. at least, i think it's him; the name and age both check out. the person mentioned in the article got in trouble for uh, inappropriate relations with minors. i have no idea what the conclusion was, though i don't think there was a conviction - else he wouldn't have been able to coach us. the article had said that sentencing would be at a later date, but i didn't manage to find any follow-up to it. with that piece of background info, i'm seeing the cryptic warning that my teacher-in-charge gave me so many years ago in a new light. but, i will stress again that to the best of my knowledge, my coach never behaved inappropriately towards me or anyone else. i suppose that's the end of the matter. not like i can ask my coach about it any more. and even if he were still alive, i wouldn't bring it up.

videos about tesla cars have made their way into my youtube feed. i have to admit, i'm quite taken by them. first and foremost is the cost savings - charging a tesla to full costs about half the price of a full tank of petrol, and you generally get more mileage out of a full battery than a full petrol tank. next and less important are the quality of life features like touch-responsiveness, auto-drive, auto-park, etc. combined with the overall appearance, it looks so futuristic! but i don't think i'd want to use auto-drive, unless i'm stuck in rush-hour traffic. after all, the fun of driving is, well, driving!

i do have a concern though, about the connectivity. the car downloads software updates (there's a sentence i never thought i'd say), which means that it's vulnerable to hacking. the thought of everything going unresponsive while travelling at high speeds is quite scary. of course, this is me speaking without having done my homework about the car's security features, so i'm sure that they have some manual override or safety features that i don't know about. for fairness, i should say that tesla isn't the only maker of electric cars; ford and chevrolet also have fully electric models. there's relatively little talk of electric vehicles made by japanese brands, but some googling has shown that they exist. perhaps they still haven't taken hold in this part of the world. however, cars that are powered by a hybrid of petrol and electricity are plentiful, so perhaps it's only a matter of time.

with what's left of today, i think i'll focus on the house cleaning. rain has put a damper on the laundry plan, so i'll probably do packing and music uploading too. seems kind of trivial, but it's a quality of life thing. i want my first road trip to go well. i'll buy the souvenir (probably some snacks) and wash the car tomorrow. everything else will be settled on monday, just before i leave.

-random thought of the day: Need to squeeze in study time during the trip.-

Felt really tired yesterday, so i went to sleep early-ish. good thing today is a public holiday, so i could sleep in a little. i typed "repay my sleep debt" at first, but deleted it because i don't really have sleep debt now. i guess it's just the weather. i did have a strange dream though, about the older BPS brother. in the dream, i was living in the bishan house, and he told me that his mother had kicked him out. there was something else about him being secretive not wanting to tell me something, which is actually quite par for the course as far as these brothers are concerned. i don't remember how the dream ended, though.

gave the super-fluffy omelette another go today. despite whisking until my arms were sore, it still turned out pretty much the same as the first time. don't think i'll be doing that again in a hurry, if even at all. too much effort. i also made ginger chocolate for the office this past monday. to be exact, it's actually ganache (known in japan as "生チョコ" - nama choko, or raw/fresh chocolate) pieces made with ginger-infused cream and with bits of ginger mixed throughout. i felt that it was lacking in ginger flavour, but the people in the office seemed to like it. i think what i'll do differently next time is grate the ginger, instead of mincing it by hand. also bearing in mind that the next time i make this will be for kids, i'll probably go for a mix of milk and dark chocolate, instead of pure dark chocolate.

decided to explore my japan options further, so i googled for more IP firms in the osaka area. my search turned up 3 prospects, and i'm most hopeful for the one that invites applicants to send inquiries to them in english. bonus is they're part of a group that has an office in singapore! there was another company that listed "in-house english conversation enrichment/support" as a staff benefit, which i thought was quite amusing. it's actually the company which i'd most like to join (just based off the impression from the website) because they offer flexi-work, exam leave, and some other nice asides. it seems to me like they are the most supportive of their staff going the patent attorney track.

before all that though, the big questions i have to answer are: (1) is this going to be useful for me? (2) how relevant will this be to my future career? yes, it's hypocritical when you consider my current job, but the plan has always been to go back into something science-related (that isn't teaching) after JET. for question 1, i'd say that it would be useful, because if nothing else, it's work experience. maybe i'll prove myself to be able to handle working in "real" corporate japan. or i might regret leaving the slack life. either way, it'll allow me to find out more about myself. question 2's answer is a bit more complicated. it's relevant, but not entirely. let me explain. it's relevant in the sense that it's in the right industry, ie. my resume will show that i worked for however long in an IP firm. at the same time, the IP laws in each country are different, so the practices will differ as well. but i figure that the core principles are more or less similar. one reassurance is that i'm eligible for a refund of up to 5 years of the pension fund money (CPF) that i paid, so if i decide to leave after a year, i can still get everything i'm due.

just took a look at the patent attorney qualifying exams in japan. as japan usually does, it offered various breakdowns of the candidate demographic. it blew my mind that some people took the exam for the 21st time and above this year, especially when i know that this is an annual exam. the oldest candidate is over 70 years old! they also posted the questions for the legal and technical sections, and i was able to get the gist of what most of the questions were asking for the chemistry option. it's actually about undergrad level. admittedly, i've forgotten a good chunk of them, including fischer projections and entropy calculations. but the knowledge is regain-able with some study. the big problem, however, is how to express it in japanese. i'm fairly confident that i could pass the exam if i was allowed to answer in english, and even more so if they gave me the questions in english too! but my japanese vocabulary simply isn't up to scratch as far as technical terms are concerned. also, assuming the test paper is all the candidates get, they won't be allowed to refer to a periodic table. i think that while it wouldn't be impossible for me to qualify as a patent attorney in japan, the process will take far more effort than it's worth. so here's the plan: i'll send some emails out to the IP firms i have in mind. i expect that most of them won't reply, or if they do, it'll be a polite GTFO. but hey, no harm in knocking on more doors.

having said that, i think i should work harder on finding employment outside of japan. if my eventual goal is to end up qualified as a patent attorney, i'd be better off doing it in australia or singapore. i saw that one potential IP firm has a more or less permanent ad up on jobstreet, which makes me worry that they're another revolving-door company. worse is their website isn't advertising any vacancies at all. my top choice for singapore (the firm that my junior is now in) isn't hiring chemists at the moment. with luck, that'll change by 2024.

-random thought of the day: Shower, then sleep.-

Odd sounds are coming from my laptop fans. guessing that it's wear and tear, and/or dust buildup. more worryingly, i've had a couple instances of blue screens when i quit final fantasy. just praying that it holds out for as long as i'm in japan. if it gets worse, i suppose i can try removing the bottom panel for a deeper clean inside. ultimate worst case: buy a laptop here, or if the time and place work out, buy one from singapore and bring it in. i REALLY want to avoid that though, because the plan is to upgrade my desktop once JET is over.

my plan for having a restful sleep last night and a productive day today didn't work out. for some reason, my sinuses got badly congested last night. it was bad to the point where an airtight seal formed, and i could only breathe out of my mouth. had to hold my breath even to swallow water, because the displaced air couldn't just escape like it usually does. let me tell you, that isn't a pleasant feeling. so the sinus problem ended up waking me up multiple times throughout the night, and i slept on and off until noon today as a result. it seems to be better now, although there's still some pressure in my face and behind my eyes. makes me wonder why...maybe atmospheric pressure fluctuations?

as i was lying in bed, i watched an NHK documentary called "the professionals". the synopsis said that this episode was about a patissier who closed his shop at the height of its popularity, which i found to be a bit misleading. see, he did close his shop, but he did it at age 65, and the shop had been around for about 20 years prior. in the time it was open, it enjoyed consistently high customer flow, so i don't think the shop was necessarily at the height of its popularity when it was closed. but anyway. minor nitpicking aside, his story is quite fascinating. he went to france at age 25 without knowing any french. that's brave as hell. through a series of events, he met a french master chef in japan, who took him under his wing and his career took off from there. it makes me think that success is also dependent on meeting the right people at the right time. the documentary also told the story of him and his wife, how they work together, and that he gave her a kidney.

under the right circumstances and conditions, i could probably be persuaded to open a F&B shop. probably the most important thing for me is not having to interact with customers. i'm the kind of person who can't sustain social interaction, unless it's with people i like/am comfortable with. maybe instead of running the full shop, i'd be better off messing around in the kitchen, while the admin and customer service parts are settled by other people. just leave me alone to experiment with food, i guess. i might even go to the extent of not offering a fixed menu - what you get depends on what's fresh at the markets that day, and what i feel like making. although the thing is, you don't get to be that eccentric unless you have an established reputation. maybe i'll consider it when i have less to lose.

for now, kansai trip in 1 week, JLPT in 2 weeks, JET annual conference in 3 weeks, and that should be the all the big events of 2022 done. i can't help but feel like i'm forgetting to blog about something. well...if i can't recall it now, it's probably not important.

-random thought of the day: Double batch of brownies tomorrow!-

Lending weight to my hypothesis that i'm dehydrated is the fact that i have an ulcer forming in my mouth. google tells me that ulcers can be due to anything from vitamin B-12 deficiency to HIV. i'm more inclined to apply occam's razor here and choose the simplest (and most probable) explanation - that i'm not drinking enough water. the plan right now is to see if it'll go away on its own with increased water consumption. failing that, it'll be time to break out the salt.

we're starting the transition into winter; the cold after stepping out of the shower is becoming uncomfortable, and fleece is a necessity now. probably because people use more energy/electricity in the winter (due to heating needs), my power company is running a campaign where they'll give you points (1 point = 1 yen credit) if you use less energy this year than you did a year ago. to be specific, you have to have energy savings of 3% or more to be eligible. and then, they'll do a lucky draw to determine the prize tier. there's 10000, 3000, and 1000 yen tiers. i used 167 kWh last january, so i'll have to use 162 kWh maximum to be eligible. considering that i was billed for 276 kWh just last month (WHY!?), i have my doubts on whether i'll be able to make it. but hey...it didn't cost me anything to enter the draw, and so it's really just a bonus if i happen to be eligible and get picked. i'm also not going to do anything special towards the goal; just live normally and maybe be more conscious about leaving lights on unnecessarily. definitely not going to go auntie mode and go all out to get in the draw, like investing in alternative heating methods, for instance. just for perspective, if i were to buy kerosene and a heater, it would most likely be a net loss unless i won the 10000 yen prize.

seeing as the JLPT is approaching, i did my first practice paper yesterday (minus the listening section). scored 57/75, which is 76%. it's not truly indicative though, because i didn't do it under strict test conditions. i found that i didn't have the mental stamina to get through it in one sitting, and i didn't even consider the time limit. i blame the distractions around me in part, but more importantly, my brain hasn't been exercised enough. this year's stress survey showed that what little stress i currently have is primarily due to feeling bored/having excess energy from being underutilized. the people at the accursed IP firm called it "capacity". i'd say that my capacity is 5% full on a typical day, maybe 10-20% when things get busy. i think i'll need to do more than what i'm currently doing to maintain my brain's sharpness. i've tried crosswords recently, and while they're fun, the clues become kind of repetitive after a while.

but i digress. the mistakes i made in the practice test were mainly in the grammar and reading sections. i asked my colleagues to explain why certain expressions were used, and they couldn't. i'm not upset though, because it's the same for me in english! like, how do you explain that in english, you put on and take off clothes, but take on and put off responsibilities? why don't the puts and takes match each other? i have to admit though, it was kind of annoying to see them take one look at my mistake and go," yeah, that really doesn't fit in the sentence". the annoyance comes from jealousy, i guess, that they can do that. but to balance it out, i can do it for english while they can't. they also told me that they estimated some of the reading passages to be at university entrance exam level, which made me feel a little better about getting some questions wrong. still, it feels too borderline. i'm especially worried about the time management part. the assessment book which i'm using for practice gives recommended time allocations for the questions. for the easy kanji and grammar ones, it's 30 seconds per question, ie. you either know the answer or don't. there are 2 more practice papers in the assessment book, and with my other workbooks, that should last me until the exam.

remember that i was asked to help organize a speech contest earlier this month? the results are out, and we're now preparing prizes for the participants. i was tasked to translate the standard japanese certificate text into english. for some reason, my brain jammed at "優秀". i was stuck between "good" and "excellent", both of which i felt were not appropriate to express what the word actually means. an SOS to the singapore JET discord turned up alternatives like "outstanding" and "exceptional", among others. i ended up using those 2. mildly worried that i couldn't think of those words by myself. they're not unfamiliar by any means, but i just couldn't recall them. i do think that my english ability is being continuously eroded as i stay in japan. but with my foundation, i'm sure that picking it all back up will be easy once i'm in a primarily english-speaking environment. on the bright side, my japanese is improving purely passively. the JLPT practice test had one reading question based on a flyer promoting an event. thanks to seeing so many documents of a similar nature in the course of my work and daily life, i breezed through that particular one.

also this past week, i was fountain pen shopping. remember how i said that i wanted to focus more on snap-cap pens? i saw the hongdian black forest pen, and decided that i wanted one each in black and in blue. it's really nice; simple understated design, no trim rings or shiny parts. in addition, i also got spare nibs in different sizes. no regrets (yet), and i think that i'll end up using them fairly often. short day tomorrow, then maybe doing something for the soccer team over the weekend. and with a public holiday next wednesday, i'm looking forward to a restful lead-in to the end of the year.

-random thought of the day: Interesting when you meet your students' parents at work.-

Dehydration and lack of sleep gives me headaches. so the fact that my head hurts now probably means that i haven't been drinking enough water or that i've been sleeping too little. in this case, it's probably the former. thinking about my water consumption, i realize it's decreased now that the weather's become cooler. i think i'm hitting maybe between 1 to 2 litres out of my 3-litre daily minimum target. need to drink more; perhaps that'll reduce the urges to eat too.

the last update was last week, so i've got a week of stuff to catch you up on. despite saying that my busy period is over, i still ended up staying late a couple of days last week, because one kid had his eiken interview scheduled later than the others and he wanted more practice. that aside, i've also been staying back out of my own volition to watch the soccer team training. now that it's approaching the winter-y season, the sky gets pitch black before 6pm. as a result, all CCAs end earlier. i find that it's a good opportunity to have extra interaction with the kids without eating too much into my personal time.

more than what's been going on in my life, there've been things going on in my mind. first is the thought of ending JET. it's still early, but i've been thinking about things to do to re-settle back into singapore. but as i was running through things that i needed/wanted to get/do, i realized that i wasn't (and still am not) looking forward to going back. as a believer that one is in control of one's own happiness and well-being, this doesn't sit right with me. fixing this problem is simple enough - in theory. i could (1) relocate to somewhere where i'd be happy, or (2) change my thinking about singapore. #1 represents the high-difficulty "big risk, big reward" option, and #2 is the safe "fall-back" alternative. within the realm of possibilities for #1, japan still exists as an option. but if i do stay here, i don't think that i could go into IP. maybe i can think of alternatives, where i can use my experience in an academic environment without going into hardcore science again. i realize that the language barrier is a really effective passive screening tool. like, if i wanted to apply to a japanese university (even to say, their international outreach department), i'd have to be proficient in japanese to at least a business level, if not native proficiency. while i know the language well enough to survive in japan, i'd consider myself at maybe 40% proficiency relative to a native speaker, which i doubt is good enough for working here.

on a related note about chasing one's happiness, i saw on facebook that my JC classmate had finished a year in africa, and was planning to go back to singapore, probably for a break before the next big adventure. back when we were in JC, she was the quietest one out of the 5 girls in the class. if you had asked me, 17 years ago, what she'd be doing at age 34, i'd probably have said something like married with kids, working at a stable job or being a housewife. i mean, she had a steady boyfriend and they looked like they were going to get married, settle down, the whole nine yards! but, here she is now, travelling the world with her husband and having a blast, by the looks of things. she's not with the JC boyfriend now, by the way. i think they broke up either towards the end of or after JC, but i don't know why. her experiences are really interesting. before africa, i believe she was in south america. those are destinations way too far out of my comfort zone, so i'm not exactly envious of her in that sense. but i do think she's really brave to live like that. i remember catching up with her at a reunion that one of our schoolmates hosted some years ago. she said that she couldn't bear the thought of working a 9-5 job day in and day out, coming home to the same HDB flat and just letting life go by (words to that effect, anyway). i wouldn't mind a daily routine, since it's kind of what i have now in japan. but the difference is that there's so much more to worry about in singapore.

since the topic came up, i might as well use this chance to explore if there's really so much to worry about, or if i'm exaggerating the problems. probably the most common worry among singaporeans is not having enough money. there was literally a movie made about it 20-some years ago - it's called money no enough, or 钱不够用. it's kind of sad to see that the situation has only deteriorated since then. in my case specifically, my biggest worry would be the ability to afford housing. considering i'll probably be living alone, or at most with only one other person, i'd say a 3-room flat would be enough for me. going by recent figures, that would set me back $300000 or more. that translates into a monthly payment of about $1000 for 25 years. considering that i can only buy a flat after turning 35 years old, i'll be paying until i'm 60! the other worry would be healthcare. like, if i were to get sick and require costly care and/or treatment. i suppose insurance mitigates that to some degree, but i'd still have to pay part of the expenses out of pocket. apart from those major things, i suppose how much i spend will be proportional to my wants. like, if i travel frequently, buy tons of material things, etc.

actually, i realize that compared to most of my peers, i am saved a lot of headache because i don't intend to have children. i don't have to worry about the associated costs of having a child (school fees, other expenses). perhaps an even bigger relief is that i don't have to think about leaving anything behind for anyone when i die. i mean, sure, it'd be nice to give surviving friends and relatives a little something extra, but i wouldn't be obliged to leave an inheritance for anyone, or be concerned about how people are going to live without me providing for them. i guess it's kind of selfish, but it's a load off my shoulders to know that i only need to worry about my own survival for as long as i'm alive.

back to more immediate things, seasonality hits again! the supermarket now has a whole section dedicated to fish roe. i bought something called 子持ちヒラメ (komochi hirame), which means "child-bearing flounder". it's a steak of flounder, complete with roe sacs. according to my online research, it's traditionally used in hotpot. i've been throwing it in the rice cooker to cook together with the rice. that preparation is good too! having grown up eating fish roe, the thought doesn't really gross me out. the eggs don't particularly taste of anything, but i've heard that they're really nutritious. on the other hand, their reproductive counterpart 白子 (shirako, or soft roe - basically fish sperm) tastes metallic. i've only had it once or twice, and i don't think i've acquired that taste yet. it's usually sold in huge packs in the supermarket, which is a deterrent to buying them as i worry that i'll end up throwing most of it away (hence wasting money) in the event that the flavour doesn't agree with me.

made the choco-banana cake again for the other school's culture festival yesterday. it went down well, i think. i realize that my cooking repertoire is increasing. a few colleagues at the town hall have said that i can/should consider selling my baked goods professionally. they're probably just being kind. besides, i don't think i want to do that. the pressure of making the business succeed would spoil my love for cooking/baking, i think. separately, i tried making a very different kind of omelette from memory, based on this video i saw many years ago:

it didn't turn out nearly as tall or as fluffy even after folding, probably because i didn't whisk the eggs hard enough, and didn't let it rest off the heat before finishing and plating. should have checked the video again before trying it! but the crispy exterior was a nice texture change from the usual unbrowned french-style omelettes i make to practise my technique. bonus: the crispy exterior meant that nothing stuck to the pan this time! besides, you know what they say - there's no such thing as a bad failed omelette. if they don't turn out well, they become scrambled eggs, which are still delicious! i'll probably try making it again soon, but with better technique.

thinking of my JC classmate made me check out the most recent issue of the CJC yearbook. there was a dedication to an ex-vice-principal, who passed away in 2020. although she was the vice-principal during my J1 year (she retired after that), i didn't feel any sense of loss or grief because i have literally never spoken to her before! nevertheless, there were many glowing testimonials and odes to her, so she evidently touched many lives throughout her career. flipping through the staff pictures, i only recognize maybe 15 out of 100+ staff by name, and have had direct interaction with maybe 10 or less of them. i'm actually surprised at the number; i'd have thought it would be less! there are a few stalwarts still in the chemistry department, and a couple of teachers in the english department whose reputations precede them. i'd last heard that one of them went back to the UK, but his linked profile says that he came back after less than a year. the people in the judo club are totally foreign to me - no surprises there since i stopped going back in 2016. i was surprised that they changed coaches, to someone from SJC. but it's good. the previous coach should be moving on. skimming through the profiles of the various judo clubs in singapore only confirmed that my decision to wash my hands off the whole scene there was the right one. i also saw in kurash that someone i vowed never to work with again has been accepted into the federation. time for me to make my exit there too. to bring back the juggling analogy relating to different aspects of life, i think i'll only have the capacity for work, personal care, and maybe one or two additional balls. what they exactly are will have to be determined at a later point, but right now i'm thinking social life (encompassing both friends and dating), and possibly one other thing.

over the past week or two, i've received some nuisance messages on whatsapp. they're not scam messages, but what makes me call them nuisances is that the senders will delete them before i get a chance to read them. i know who the senders are, too - the BPS brothers from a long time ago. if i had to guess, i'd say that this is their way of getting my attention. for what purpose, i don't know. but i decided that i'm not going to entertain any games. so until i know what the purpose for them contacting me is, i won't react. the worst case if this persists is i block the numbers, no fuss or hassle. life is so much less complicated this way.

going to have a couple of short days next week, because the schools have some workshops in the afternoons that i'm not required to attend. good chance to burn up all the accumulated unrecorded time off. better study for JLPT too, considering the test is just 3 weeks away! would be nice to pass on the first try, although given my track record, i don't have my hopes too high. hopefully the remaining time will boost my confidence.

-random thought of the day: Feeling conflicted.-

Yesterday's english speech contest marked the end of my busy period this term. it was...not a disaster, but could have been better. i attribute it to one of the schools not being willing to dedicate more resources/support to make it a bigger event. we are due for an AAR eventually, i think, and depending on how it goes, the contest might become an annual thing, along with the usual japanese speech contest. on my part, the things i could have done better would be better choices of reading passages (duration-wise), giving way more advance notice, pushing for deadlines to be more strictly followed, and establishing clearer judging criteria. nevertheless, i'm grateful that the kids did their best and put up a decent showing. the guest judge (someone from the prefectural board of education) gave the kids advice on how to present better. as befitting a(n ex-?)high school english teacher, his english was really good! and i'm not saying that just to be polite. i realize that all japanese people who are proficient in english have the same accent when speaking it. it's hard to describe, but i think the most distinguishing feature is that the Rs and Ls can be clearly differentiated.

i've been doing some cooking experiments recently. first was a banana chocolate cake. see, i usually make things for the school staff when we go back for events on saturdays. i do it maybe once or twice a term, so it's not that much of an effort. i was running out of ideas, and it so happened that i had some bananas which i'd bought a few days ago. they were getting old, and i just put two and two together. it started out as a simple banana cake, but then, i had the brainwave of "hey, choco-banana is a thing in japan!", so i swirled chocolate through the batter before baking. the bananas provided additional moisture, which was nice. not sure if the chocolate burned; i sampled an edge piece (which didn't have too much chocolate in it) for quality control, and it was fairly good. no complaints from anyone, so i'll take it as a win.

less of a win were the brownies i made for the school band to support their annual concert. because my usual metal baking tin was occupied by the chocolate banana cake, i used a glass baking dish instead. i knew that there was a difference in how things baked in metal vs glass, but i remembered it the wrong way round. the actual difference is that glass retains heat better than metal, so it takes longer to warm up, but also retains the heat for longer. if you bake things in glass, you should probably reduce the temperature, time, or both. genius me went to increase the temperature instead. result was that the whole bottom and some of the sides burnt. lucky i caught on and trimmed the burnt bits off. it meant that the pieces were about 20% thinner, though. that'll teach me to do something unfamiliar with no trial run!

other cooking adventures: caramelized bananas. still need better control on heating the sugar for that one. i'm surprised at how much the bananas retain their flavour even after cooking! in the middle of last week, i made a huge pot of cream soup, which lasted me for 3 days. the original plan was to make soup in a homemade bread bowl, but then i discovered that i didn't have enough flour to make a full-sized loaf. and i had quite a lot of vegetables, so i just decided to put everything in the soup. it was nice! for once, i didn't overdo the garlic. the things i'd do differently would probably be to blend the soup, and to use more cream. i used a 200mL carton for maybe...2 litres of soup? i did taste it, and i think that it did thicken the soup a little, but more wouldn't be amiss, i think. on the other hand, that makes it less healthy too. we'll see next time.

do you have any weird food rules or biases? while i wouldn't tell others how they should enjoy their food, i do have some food-related beliefs that may be odd to some people. first is the "no fruits and nuts in savoury food" belief. i understand that sweet and sour recipes often use pineapple, and nuts/raisins are commonly added to rice in some cultures, but i wouldn't cook my food that way. not that i wouldn't eat it if it was on the menu, by the way. i also believe that "steak should be medium rare or medium at most", and perhaps more oddly, "white chocolate isn't really chocolate". under normal circumstances, i wouldn't buy white chocolate for personal consumption. but i've recently bought a few bars to make into matcha chocolate, and somehow, i ended up eating a few pieces as they were. i have to say that i quite like it! of course, my first choice will always be dark, but white chocolate isn't off the table any more. i'm thinking it might be because the stuff i have here is less sweet and milky.

which leads me to another point, about opinions. people are often praised for sticking to their guns, less so if they change their minds about something. the only exception would probably be if there's scientific proof to support the new point of view, but those don't really exist for subjective things like taste and preference. i don't think it's wrong to change one's mind - it just shows that people are capable of learning and growing. i should be more confident about my opinions. having said that, i don't think i'll be liking well-done steak anytime soon!

another new thing i experienced recently is doing an amazon return. i bought a pull-up bar, the kind that wedges between 2 vertical surfaces. possibly due to the age of the house, i heard wood creaking as i set the bar up. and although the bar was rated to hold up to 200kg, the creaking didn't make me feel safe using it, for fear of personal injury and/or damage to the house. so i arranged a return to amazon. the process was less painful that i thought. apply through the "my orders" page, get a shipping label and barcode, print it out, pack the things up, slap the label on, and send it off. especially because it's in japan, i could drop the package off at the local convenience store. the downside is that the returner is responsible for return postage in the case where the product itself isn't damaged, so i actually got maybe 1800 yen back, out of my 2999 yen refund total. still, some money back is better than nothing...or worse, putting in additional effort to sell it off second-hand.

speaking of amazon, i've also bought a water flosser. it was motivated by a dental health workshop that the kids in school had. i've known for a while that my gums aren't the healthiest, as some dentists have told me. the thing that surprised me was that the water jet was so strong! or maybe it's just my gums are weak. mild pain aside, it's actually quite fun to use! best thing is that it charges by USB, so i can bring it on to my next destination.

not wanting the refund money to sit for too long in my amazon account, i also bought a couple of fountain pens and nibs. metal bodies, snap caps, coloured nibs that match the pen bodies. i'm actually quite excited to get them! and in the event that i don't get along with them, i can give them away to some kids in the schools. i also think that i should start to get rid of some screw-cap pens that i won't be using in the future. unfortunately, that's something i can only do when i'm back in singapore, or long-term in another place. as a reminder to myself, i'm also looking to get the pilot explorer, for a work-appropriate pen. but after JET.

recently, i noticed that there are fewer cars parked in the shared lot outside. the BMW that gave me grief that one time when i'd just moved in is conspicuously missing, as are the 2 cars that are usually parked between me and it. the last time i saw it was...a few weeks ago? makes me think a whole family moved out, especially since one house is now totally dark. considering that i don't interact with them at all, i don't feel particularly affected. but it's interesting to track how a place changes over time.

now that i don't have any more big events on the horizon, it's time i started using up some of my accumulated off-in-lieu. somehow in the last month, i've managed to accumulate 14 hours. i'll probably take the last hour or two off workdays here and there. the goal is to finish using it all by this year.

-random thought of the day: Need to sleep better.-