Mondays. i tend to start the week off on the wrong foot. and no lame jokes about getting up on the wrong side of the bed, because the wrong side of my bed's facing the wall. ^_^

we got a trademark denis-type speech (as we always do on mondays). apparently, i can make it to vj if i increase my discipline (read: do maths at every free moment). but nobody in the class can make it to rj because our determination's only 7/10. but we might do it if it goes up to an 8.5 or so.

training was...training. another reason i hate mondays is because i can never really perform on the lanes. i have yet to find the reason why though. maybe i still need to adapt to coming to training after a long draggy boring day at school.

sometimes, i wonder if i should have volunteered to be retained. sec 4 life seems a little too much to handle at the moment, and i need to work on my foundations in maths and ss. but every time i ask myself that, i always say "no". sure it's tough now, but this is the worst it can get. things can only get better now...right?? of course, i could fall terribly sick and miss 3 months' worth of lessons and fall so far back that i crash and burn during the prelims and get sent to some poly for the first 3 months then get my o's result and find that i actually got into ite, but let's try not to think there, yes?

i suppose daryl phrased it best when he said that we're fighting an internal war. going from slack life to study-every-minute-of-your-life mode is a tough change, especially if you've been slacking since p4 or so. gah. too much complacency floating around me. i think that HBK's motivational talk wasn't that motivational after all. sure we were all "CHIONG AH!!!!!!!" when it was over, but that lasted for...15 hours max? i guess we don't apply what we learn that efficiently.

for some reason, i find myself attracted to the Soujirou smiley. you know, the one that goes ^__^...it looks so...cute. yes, i'm going off the deep end. maybe i should trademark it or something.

i realize that i'm still in need of a phone. but due to my expensive tastes, everything i set my eyes on costs more than $500. ah well. but there's this not-too-bad deal on a 6600 that i'm considering...

~thingy of the day: Sano used to carry a zanbatou ("horse-killing blade"), which as the name implies, was a HUGE-ASS sword meant for killing war horses and stabbing the riders to a gruesome, bloody death.~