Seems like the bad day slept in a little this week. today was worse than yesterday. maybe it's the chinese. i've come to realize that i'm starting to hate the subject with a passion. take note that i said "subject", not "teachers" or "language", because in all honesty, even though dm's really inspirational as a teacher and as a person, i feel that i've learnt all i need to last me throughout the rest of my life. i just don't see myself using 70% of the ci yu we learn now in business dealings or whatever i'll be doing in later life, unless a twist of fate causes me to be a chinese teacher.

speaking of my future life, i don't see myself obtaining a singapore-based degree. i really have this long-term goal/vision of studying abroad, just to experience life outside the island. singapore has next to nuts in terms of culture, a short history and the scenery is (almost) nonexistent. now compare that to a bigger/older country like japan, which (in case you don't know,) has a rich/diverse (word usage?) culture, a long history, and the most beautiful scenery. furthermore, the only "trademarked" thing in singapore is stress and the kiasu spirit, unlike japan, whose "trademarks" are the best swords in the world and a wonderful, service-oriented population. of course, this is the first impression i got when i went to japan, and it may not be true, but the first impression lasts the longest.

i can feel the demons of the past term creeping up on me already. these demons have taken the form i fear most: unfiled (and most likely lost) work. i should learn to be a teeny bit more organized. or scratch the "teeny bit". i need to be 3million times more organized than i am now (if i have any organizational skills to speak of).

i need a break. preferably forever, but 50 years will do just as well. i have this nagging thought in the back of my mind that i should drop physics. not that i'm no good at it, but to lighten my workload. or maybe i'm lying to myself again. i don't spend that much time on any of my subjects anyway, and i don't think one subject less will make a difference.

~thingy of the day: Is it worth losing a friend over a secret?~