I absolutely loathe maths.
i don't know why, but i was panicking in school before the paper. i guess it's the lack of confidence. it felt way worse than the prelims did, which probably means i'll get below 60 marks for this. that means if i get full marks for paper 2, i just may be able to see my A around the corner. riiight. oh well. who knows? miracles just may happen, as long as my willpower is strong enough.
if there's one thing i need to learn, it's not to dwell on what has already passed. really important skill, that one. i'm still struggling to perfect it. i think i let the negative feeling during and after the maths paper last too long, which is why i'm trying to get rid of it through blogging, and this helps me save many many $$ in therapy bills. yay blogging!
chem tomorrow. i really should be sleeping now, or at least reading up for my option, but i figured it's better to vent a little before that. it clears the head. you know, i think i may want to reconsider teaching as a backup plan. somehow, i get worried for my students. that's not a bad thing in itself, but i tend to get too worried, especially when they can't give me the answers i'm looking for. worst thing is, i'm not even getting paid for tutoring them, so imagine if i was. i think they'd end up hating me for all the stuff i'd put them through.
anyway, back on the topic of chem. i'm actually feeling less confident than usual. but hey, this is the biggest exam of my life to date after all, so i suppose that's natural...sort of. my environment option appears to be totally shot, so i'm not placing my hopes too high on it. just a pass there would be nice. as for the rest, i think there are just a few more kinks that need to be ironed out, especially in transition metals. it's mainly describing trends that gets me. i tend to be better at applying stuff, instead of memorizing it. ah well. at least i can take comfort in the fact that the subject head thinks highly of my ability, and that i was taught by one of the best teachers ever, though that was quite long ago. even now, i remember one recommendation letter he wrote for me. reading it gives me such a tremendous morale boost, it's amazing.
just another 2 weeks. that's all. i can survive this. why? because i'm pro. simple as that. right? of course. as you can see, self-affirmation is the key here. we all need encouragement once in a while, no?
oh. i just remembered. those geniuses at creative have run out of stock for a silver zen micro. so that means my player (which, incidentally, malfunctioned again) is not coming back for a while. damn. just when i need it for studying music. bad things happen at the most opportune time. that's murphy's law. after having 2 zen micros die on me, i'm now convinced that apple>creative. so next time my mp3 player screws up, it's an ipod for me. heck, i may even just sell the replacement zen micro on ebay straight away. to hell with creative. i'd love to support local brands, it's just that they don't give me a good enough reason to.
man, it does feel good to be able to rant on and on without a care in the world. but, i think that's enough for now. i really need to sleep soon, and take my mind off things. i'm becoming too high-strung. i should try to calm down more, like O-level days. then again, as i've recently taken to saying, "the theory part's easy, but the practical isn't."
i don't know why, but i was panicking in school before the paper. i guess it's the lack of confidence. it felt way worse than the prelims did, which probably means i'll get below 60 marks for this. that means if i get full marks for paper 2, i just may be able to see my A around the corner. riiight. oh well. who knows? miracles just may happen, as long as my willpower is strong enough.
if there's one thing i need to learn, it's not to dwell on what has already passed. really important skill, that one. i'm still struggling to perfect it. i think i let the negative feeling during and after the maths paper last too long, which is why i'm trying to get rid of it through blogging, and this helps me save many many $$ in therapy bills. yay blogging!
chem tomorrow. i really should be sleeping now, or at least reading up for my option, but i figured it's better to vent a little before that. it clears the head. you know, i think i may want to reconsider teaching as a backup plan. somehow, i get worried for my students. that's not a bad thing in itself, but i tend to get too worried, especially when they can't give me the answers i'm looking for. worst thing is, i'm not even getting paid for tutoring them, so imagine if i was. i think they'd end up hating me for all the stuff i'd put them through.
anyway, back on the topic of chem. i'm actually feeling less confident than usual. but hey, this is the biggest exam of my life to date after all, so i suppose that's natural...sort of. my environment option appears to be totally shot, so i'm not placing my hopes too high on it. just a pass there would be nice. as for the rest, i think there are just a few more kinks that need to be ironed out, especially in transition metals. it's mainly describing trends that gets me. i tend to be better at applying stuff, instead of memorizing it. ah well. at least i can take comfort in the fact that the subject head thinks highly of my ability, and that i was taught by one of the best teachers ever, though that was quite long ago. even now, i remember one recommendation letter he wrote for me. reading it gives me such a tremendous morale boost, it's amazing.
just another 2 weeks. that's all. i can survive this. why? because i'm pro. simple as that. right? of course. as you can see, self-affirmation is the key here. we all need encouragement once in a while, no?
oh. i just remembered. those geniuses at creative have run out of stock for a silver zen micro. so that means my player (which, incidentally, malfunctioned again) is not coming back for a while. damn. just when i need it for studying music. bad things happen at the most opportune time. that's murphy's law. after having 2 zen micros die on me, i'm now convinced that apple>creative. so next time my mp3 player screws up, it's an ipod for me. heck, i may even just sell the replacement zen micro on ebay straight away. to hell with creative. i'd love to support local brands, it's just that they don't give me a good enough reason to.
man, it does feel good to be able to rant on and on without a care in the world. but, i think that's enough for now. i really need to sleep soon, and take my mind off things. i'm becoming too high-strung. i should try to calm down more, like O-level days. then again, as i've recently taken to saying, "the theory part's easy, but the practical isn't."
-random thought of the day: Ketones do not react with Tollen's reagent.-
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