I'm sensing a recurring pattern to my weird dreams. They usually happen at my bishan place instead of sengkang. Probably because there's 27 years' worth of memories and associations there. So this dream featured someone that I don't talk to any more. It's sad because we used to be pretty close. In the dream, we were living together and shared my old room. Not sure how or why, there was a disagreement or something and this person wanted to go to a nearby field to fight and blow off steam. I think a similar scenario happened in a previous dream, because I instantly knew which field to go to (one near bishan park). Instead of taking public transit like we did the previous time, I offered to drive. So we went to go down to the carpark using the lift, but got sidetracked as people wanted to go up. We talked a little in the lift too. They told me that their parents were moving into a unit on a lower floor, and I told them that I liked the carpark because it was never full.

During the lift journey, we went past a judo club run by someone I particularly dislike. They told me that they thought that the judo club was good, and that they wanted to join it. My response was something like "we have different opinions on this, and that's ok. You go try out if you really want to". Somehow, we ended up on the 14th storey (although I'm sure my old block only has 13 storeys in real life). I wanted to use an alternate lift lobby, so we went down the stairs, and ended up in s14 of nus. We got separated in the corridors, and I found my way to the pharmacy lab, which was closing as it was 10:00pm. There was a lab officer doing some mopping, and I asked her how she survived if she had to report to work early every day. She said that she needed less sleep as she got older. The last thing that happened in the dream was that there was a case of mistaken identity, as I thought an nus student was my person.

I wonder if it's my need for closure that sparked this dream. We parted on not-good terms in real life...or rather, that person cut me out of their life with no warning or explanation. But that was almost 4 years ago. It would be too late to try to reach out now, I think. They haven't expressed any desire to reconnect, so that should be a big hint for me. It's a pity; I had hoped to achieve great things with this person. Well...what that person chose to do is out of my control. What's within my control is my reaction to it. There's not much I can do though, so I guess the best course of action is to live my life. If we're fated to meet again, we will. And I'll deal with that scenario if it happens.

Interesting thought: for someone who likes Japan so much, I have a terrible track record in my interactions with half-Japanese people.