Merry christmas! or happy holidays, if you don't celebrate...you get the idea. don't really feel all too festive this year, not even when CNY is exactly a month away. but that's par for the course for the past 5 years or so. not sure about the direction in which i want to take this post, so be prepared for disjointed thoughts.
was talking to an in-game friend in final fantasy a couple of days ago. i was telling her (yes, girls who game do exist) about my recent spate of weird dreams. she thinks that it's got to do with unresolved issues. seems to be the story of my life for this year. i don't know if that's really the cause of my dreams, though. if that were the case, wouldn't i be dreaming of those unresolved issues, instead of things from the past like my A-levels, and most recently, about my thesis comments and defense? i don't know. this dreaming thing isn't an exact science. maybe the link is more subtle/hidden. although i don't see what links i have with the mafia, to be dreaming of them...
didn't do much for christmas this year, as you might have guessed. only gave one christmas gift so far, and that's to my learning lab mentor. she continues to be amazing in terms of supporting me and being available when i need advice, and i think that people like her are a key reason for employee retainment in any organization. if only my mentor in the IP firm was like her, or even half as good...but i'll blog about that in the year-end post. am considering gifting lawyer guy something in-game, like an emote, but i don't know if it'll be seen as too forward, or unwelcome, or somehow make him feel obligated to give me something back. to look at it more positively, it may be a talking point, or it may be something that brings us closer. might as well, right, since i'm also planning to get some stuff for myself. maybe the trick is to choose something not too expensive, but that he'll (hopefully) like.
this gifting thing led to me thinking if i'm placing too much emphasis/focus on the wrong people. you know how it's like people say that we tend to spend our time/money/resources impressing the people who don't actually matter, while neglecting those who do matter? yeah, like that. not saying that it's the right thing to do, but my guess is we do that because the people who shouldn't matter actually do matter in a different way. like, say, your boss, who writes your appraisal. or that guy/girl you're chasing in the hope that s/he ends up being the love of your life. hope i haven't been (too) guilty of that. although it's difficult sometimes, because people have their own lives to lead as well, and not everyone is stuck in limbo like me. having said that, perhaps i should check in on the chemistry guys. it's been a while since we last met.
there's a practice of shortening words and phrases when texting. shouldn't come as a surprise to anyone who's been exposed to technology from the past 10 years. i feel that some of these contractions are genuinely useful, but not so much for others. recently, a common thing is to shorten the word "sorry" to "sry". and just like with "you" to "u", this annoys me by a disproportionate amount. i mean, it's just an omission of 2 letters, right? what's the big deal? i can't explain it completely, but my current thought is that it makes the apology less meaningful, somehow. i don't know. maybe i'm thinking too much here. it's been known to happen.
very unexpectedly, N messaged me earlier today. if memory serves, we haven't talked, let alone met up, for more than a year. he just wanted to check in, which i thought was a nice gesture. like i mentioned before, i don't think our friendship really recovered from what happened back then. maybe it's just me...i don't feel that close to him any more. the next logical question to ask, i guess, is whether i want to spend the required time and effort to rebuild this friendship. i feel pretty ambivalent about it, and that kind of speaks for itself. well...what will be, will be.
was talking to an in-game friend in final fantasy a couple of days ago. i was telling her (yes, girls who game do exist) about my recent spate of weird dreams. she thinks that it's got to do with unresolved issues. seems to be the story of my life for this year. i don't know if that's really the cause of my dreams, though. if that were the case, wouldn't i be dreaming of those unresolved issues, instead of things from the past like my A-levels, and most recently, about my thesis comments and defense? i don't know. this dreaming thing isn't an exact science. maybe the link is more subtle/hidden. although i don't see what links i have with the mafia, to be dreaming of them...
didn't do much for christmas this year, as you might have guessed. only gave one christmas gift so far, and that's to my learning lab mentor. she continues to be amazing in terms of supporting me and being available when i need advice, and i think that people like her are a key reason for employee retainment in any organization. if only my mentor in the IP firm was like her, or even half as good...but i'll blog about that in the year-end post. am considering gifting lawyer guy something in-game, like an emote, but i don't know if it'll be seen as too forward, or unwelcome, or somehow make him feel obligated to give me something back. to look at it more positively, it may be a talking point, or it may be something that brings us closer. might as well, right, since i'm also planning to get some stuff for myself. maybe the trick is to choose something not too expensive, but that he'll (hopefully) like.
this gifting thing led to me thinking if i'm placing too much emphasis/focus on the wrong people. you know how it's like people say that we tend to spend our time/money/resources impressing the people who don't actually matter, while neglecting those who do matter? yeah, like that. not saying that it's the right thing to do, but my guess is we do that because the people who shouldn't matter actually do matter in a different way. like, say, your boss, who writes your appraisal. or that guy/girl you're chasing in the hope that s/he ends up being the love of your life. hope i haven't been (too) guilty of that. although it's difficult sometimes, because people have their own lives to lead as well, and not everyone is stuck in limbo like me. having said that, perhaps i should check in on the chemistry guys. it's been a while since we last met.
there's a practice of shortening words and phrases when texting. shouldn't come as a surprise to anyone who's been exposed to technology from the past 10 years. i feel that some of these contractions are genuinely useful, but not so much for others. recently, a common thing is to shorten the word "sorry" to "sry". and just like with "you" to "u", this annoys me by a disproportionate amount. i mean, it's just an omission of 2 letters, right? what's the big deal? i can't explain it completely, but my current thought is that it makes the apology less meaningful, somehow. i don't know. maybe i'm thinking too much here. it's been known to happen.
very unexpectedly, N messaged me earlier today. if memory serves, we haven't talked, let alone met up, for more than a year. he just wanted to check in, which i thought was a nice gesture. like i mentioned before, i don't think our friendship really recovered from what happened back then. maybe it's just me...i don't feel that close to him any more. the next logical question to ask, i guess, is whether i want to spend the required time and effort to rebuild this friendship. i feel pretty ambivalent about it, and that kind of speaks for itself. well...what will be, will be.
-random thought of the day: Why do my keyboard and mouse feel sticky?-
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