Spoke with my mentor today about a case i had, and took the chance to update her on my promotion plan. she thinks i should be able to hit the numbers. i also asked for her opinion on the quality of my work, to which she said that i'm improving and she thinks i should be ready for promotion. that's quite a significant confidence boost! i also checked in with my colleague from the same intake. she told me that our lead is asking her to aim for september promotion as well, which she says she can meet. seems like we're at a similar stage of progression! i'd actually say she's progressing faster than me, because we're at similar stages despite english not being her first language. semi-related, one of my colleagues showed me a report that he had to write in chinese. i don't think i'd be capable of writing that, even with no deadline!

i realize that work, health, and encounters with guys are forming the bulk of my posts. mildly worried, because i think a habit is forming, and i don't really think of writing about anything else. i'd actually thought about blogging about several weird dreams that occurred over the past few weeks, but kept forgetting to do so. some of the more memorable ones include a dream about the ex. i forgot the actual content of it, but i believe it was set in a time where he didn't cheat, because i didn't feel like violently rearranging his facial features in the dream. well...i do think that i'm over him and the whole cheating thing. may not sound like it, because he's someone i never want to meet again. depending on who you ask, being "over someone" could mean anything from "i've moved on and am happy now" to "i'd be ok to sit down and talk with that person, maybe even have a meal together". i'm definitely more in the former camp than the latter one. it's the same with some of my secondary schoolmates. i'm over the bad experiences that they were responsible for, but i wouldn't lose out on never seeing them again.

the second dream was weirder, and it involved me having intimate relations with a woman. not even a trans girl...like an honest to goodness cis female. what could have triggered that?? i recall not hating it, but not particularly enjoying it either. does this mean i'm not as gay as i thought? i don't think so, because i'm not particularly interested in finding out how it feels for real. plus, lady parts still unsettle me somewhat. so that'll stay in my dreams.

another thing i forgot to mention - since i'm nearing the end of my meat stockpile in the freezer, i'll adjust my diet to be more fish-based. not that i'm swearing off land animals or anything, just that i'm going to choose fish whenever practicable. think that'll be better for my health!

-random thought of the day: Feels like my sinuses are still blocked.-